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Sunday, April 27, 2008

New Worlds

I was watching some videos the other day about how sound affects us, and I remember that at the end of one of the videos it was saying, this world is ending, let's create new worlds.
Wouldn't that be cool creating new worlds with sound?

Anyways this post is mostly a fluff post. Not too Gang Stalking Related. Well it is sort of because, I was remembering when my Gang Stalking first started. I was really unhappy, bored consistently, and I had by that stage been putting up with about 7 years of workplace mobbing by that time. It had taken a bit of a toll.

Anyways my energy levels were not at a high point then, and that is when this seems to have had it's zenith into my life. I think this robs you of so much if you let it, and I think in some ways you can begin to change this.

Recently I have had to accept so much weird stuff. Gang Stalking, Government creepiness, the world inching to a one world government with civilian spies already in place in most countries around the world.

I have also come to the acceptance that wither we want to believe it or not, we really at times do
live in two worlds. That's hard to fathom. Even if you see it you would hardly believe it, but hopefully in time in your heart you would know it was true, even if you could not verify it in any other way.

That got me thinking about movies with space and time travel, like terminator and Kyle who travels across time for Sarah. Ofcourse if time is not linear, then he really didn't travel across time, in the traditional sense. It also got me thinking about Dracula.

That movie was great. I mean here is a prince who fights this great battle, only to have his love die, and then he manipulates time and chance to find her again, a chance for them to be together again, only to have it fail, and have her end up with some insipid dude. (No offense to the keeneu Reeves character.)

I think that movie was great and I think if I was going to write a part two to that movie, I would have the roles reversed. I would have a lady waiting for her prince. On the eve of a great battle he falls. Sword in hand, his horse fails and he falls. She senses his death and her heart dies, she grieves for him across time and space, her cries are so loud, and so compelling. He also makes a promise to come back to her, even as he is dying he knows he will come back to her.

The universe hears his promise and her prayers, or whatever happens when a great love is unfulfilled. I think it would be something like the seal song, love's divine. "Then the rainstorm came, over meAnd I felt my spirit breakI had lost all of my, belief you seeAnd realized my mistakeBut time threw a prayer, to meAnd all around me became still

I need love, love's divinePlease forgive me now I see that I've been blindGive me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

Through the rainstorm came sanctuaryAnd I felt my spirit flyI had found all of my realityI realize what it takes

'Cause I need love, love's divinePlease forgive me now I see that I've been blindGive me love, love is what I need to help me know my name

Oh I, don't bet (don't bend), don't break (don't break) Show me how to live and promise me you won't forsake 'Cause love can help me know my name

Well I try to say there's nothing wrongBut inside I felt me lying all alongBut the message here was plain to see Believe me."

I think I would include the scene where Dracula bids Mina to remember and she remembers and cries the diamond tear, that was really cool. Her heart died when she thought he was dead, and would not return to her.

I think in part two they would get to have that great mind link thing, like Mina and Dracula did. I can't think what the ladies name would be, but I would have the prince be Aton, Alex, or Adam, or something like that, since Mina has four letters ending in an A. I would like to make the prince for part two be fair and blue to contrast the dark look of Dracula character of part one.

Ofcourse since the world does not believe in happy endings, I suppose that part two will not work out any better than Dracula part one did. That's a shame, you would think that travelling across time, and the universe giving a second chance for happiness, for two people who grieved and loved each other would work out. Again Mina could have just walked away from her friends and been with her prince, but she choose a different path. Maybe part two should have a different ending.

Anyways, other movie that I liked that dealt with time travel, was forbidden kingdom. Vampire movies were sort of last season. This season if you have to see something, I suggest you see The Forbidden Kingdom. Jet Li, Jackie Chan, action packed can I say anything else? It also deals with the mystical, and it's amazing. I am a total Jet Li fan. That movie kicked ass, and I had so much fun seeing it. Worth seeing again.

It's about an monkey king, who loses his weapon, and a traveller must return it, it also has immortals, and a young sparrow looking for vengeance. The movie also goes between two worlds. It has this cool chick, who has this wicked whip thing, and her hair does the same thing. (She is a little bit bitter and does trust the words or promises of men, because they lie, but the chick can hold her own.) She was cool. All the characters were amazing.

Visually it reminded me of the movie hero, and crouching tiger hidden dragon. From start to finish is was amazing. I enjoyed every minute of it. I can't wait to see part two. There has to be a part two. A movie that good has to have a second part to it. I am almost sure it will. (I hope the whip chick is back for part two if they do.)

So in continuing with my theme about being in two worlds at once, when one world ends, then you just create another. We are these powerful spiritual creatures, that is part of this lie that the world does not want us to wake up to. We are on these amazing journeys, and we have so much potential if we let ourselves.

For the first time in a long time, I am really happy, my energy levels have been getting back to what they were before the Gang Stalking thing. I am more in tune with myself. My dream world and my waking world. Before it was like a lot of the stuff that I would dream, I would not fully remember because I was so distracted by the Gang Stalking, Electronic Harassment torture stuff. Now that I am less distracted, I am a bit more in tune with my dream world and waking world. We travel in dreams, and often live out what we will do in the real world. Stuff is decided in dreams before they are accomplished in the real world. You can have spirit wolrds, that no one can hear touch or feel, but other spiritual beings. Promises can be made it the spirit world, and they can also be broken, just like in the real world. Path can be created, forgotten, and even abandoned.

The nice thing however is that we are not just passive beings on these paths, we are powerful creators, with a fully active say to what happens, and the choices we make. That is the neat thing that I am discovering, and I feel more hopeful than I have in a really long time, because I now know that, when one world ends, you simply create another.

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Thursday, April 24, 2008

One ring.
The Lord of the Rings. It alludes to an integral part of the plot. The poem reads:
All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost; The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost. From the ashes a fire shall be woken, A light from the shadows shall spring; Renewed shall be blade that was broken, The crownless again shall be king.[1]

Figuring out who you want to be. I really like this part of the movie. I get all happy when I hear this poem, cause it's a pretty hopeful one. I think you don't always start off becoming who you are meant to be, sometimes it is a journey, sometimes you really are that diamond in the ruff. Sometimes you don't know what role a character will play, like the Gollum character towards the

I think the movie is neat cause you have this King masquerading around as a ranger, eluding his true destiny. While eluding his true destiny he also eludes true love. The two being tied into one. Cause of course Arwen's father will not allow her to marry him, unless he takes up his role as king.

I like the dream scene where she gives him the evening star, and says it's hers to give. I think in that scene would have been cool if he had given her a ring. Ofcourse even in the dream world she would probably still have needed approval from her elven father, or maybe not, cause in spirit your hearts can do and say things that you are prevented from doing in the real world.

Watching the characters transform over the course of the three movies is amazing. I think it's one of my favorite trilogies. Not only because all of the characters are so truly worthy, but because friendships, romance, honor, loyalty, destiny, still mean something in the movie. You don't get that a lot in the real world, and I think that so sad, because it's truly needed, especially in our time period.

I like the scene where he finally takes up the sword and decides to fulfill what he is meant to do. Ofcouse if Arwen had gone on the ship, would the sword ever have been reforged, and would he ever have left off the ranger role, and taken up his role as king? I like to think that another way would have presented itself, but sometimes one thing set's into play another thing.

Anyways if you have never seen this trilogy, it's worthwhile. It's small people overcoming amazing odds, it's loyalty and friendship like you can only dream of. It's romance and watching a destiny be fulfilled. It's spiritual and mystical. It's so many things rolled into one.

Gandalf: One Ring to rule them all, One Ring to find them, One Ring to bring them all and in the darkness bind them.

Galadriel: "Even the smallest person can change the course of the future." ...

Gandalf: "There was never much hope. Just a fool's hope."

We are once again upon such a time.

"One government to rule them all, using the snitches to find them. One surveillance society to bring them all in, and in their ignorance bind them."

"But there is hope, even the smallest target can make a difference."

And we must try to make a difference.

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Redemption Song.

Life is a journey and you get to decide how you want to live it. We are not just physical beings, in fact I have heard it said that we are spiritual beings having a physical journey.

Life is also what you make it. So you have to choose your own paths. Targets and others alike. The hardest part for me about this crazy government targeting, was not only being targeted, but realising that others were being targeted as well. It's bad enough what was happening to me, but to know it was happening to others was just creepy out there weird. You would think being tracked, monitored, and tortured in my home was a unique experience, but it was not. It was happening to so many others, their screams, silent alone, were also being heard somewhere across time and space. On cyberspace we finally had a chance for our collective voices and shared experiences to be heard. The collective consciousness could gather as one and borg together our experiences.

It does not change anything, but it's given us a chance of hope, vindication, and even a chance for redemption for some. The second hardest thing for me to understand was not, only does this happen to many in society, but that some where tortured until they cracked, and became themselves these zombies that could then do the same to their own kind. That part was and still is hard for me to understand.

I mean you would get the apologies sometimes but people were still actively, and openly participating in trying to ruin and destroy my life. That was the part that was hard to understand. I mean I always thought that if you hated something for yourself you would not do it to others right? However in reading about and researching Stasi Germany I see that many others did, and probably will. That part for me is still hard to come to terms with. Targets can be targets and (Snitches) perps at the same time. Yeah I am still working on that one, mentally.

Romans 12: 9-13."And at that time many will fall away and will betray one another and hate one another. And many false prophets will arise, and will mislead many. And because lawlessness is increased, most people’s love will grow cold. But the one who endures to the end, it is he who shall be saved. "

Growing up it was hard to understand why neighbours would be betraying neighbours and family would betray family, of course this sort of snitch system has been used since at least the Roman time period, so it's not hard to believe that others had seen it in play. Eg. Judas betrayal.
For the longest time in my world it was targets against the snitches. There was no way for me to see the gray areas. I mean when I was just researching this, trying to understand how society and the world could be like this, as I was being introduced to electronic torture for the first time was a real eye opener. It still blows my mind, that you can be at home, and be tortured in your home, so much so that you wake up with burns, and your skin pealing, and then you just have to go about your day. You can have little pin sized holes burnt into your skin, and face, and then you just have to find a way to still have a normal life. Separate the two worlds so that you can function.

If I was going through this by myself it would have been hard, but being able to provide comfort to others that were going through this was helpful for me. My unheard screams were not the loudest in space anymore, others were more confused and in need of comfort and clarity than I was. Doing the site over the last year and a half, has been a journey, one that many targets were able to travel with me, while we figured out what was happening to us, while we tried to understand together how the world could be like this. To find a way to function. I admit that the jobless, at home times even with the torture did give me lot's of time for reflection and that really helped.

I mean you live on this planet for years, and you never have any idea, any clue that the world could be like this. I didn't I was completely clueless. I always trusted everything, and thought everything was so safe, loved my country, and trusted my government and that we were the good guys and had everyone's best intentions at heart. I see how manipulated I was, but innocence and ignorance are an interesting mix.;num=1201459219

Others discover the truth, with horrifying consequences. I mean who would believe that much of humanity are nothing better than slaves right? That life was a lot more like the Matrix than we realised, and that on top of that, there are other forces in the world and the universe that we know nothing about.

David Icke talks alot about other forces that control the forces that control this planet. The bible says that "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Ephesians 6:12" Also on the website in 2 worlds, references are again made to other influences not of this world.

I have always been a spiritual person, I believe in spiritual things, but even as a spiritual person there is so much that I am just starting to learn now, just when you think it could not get any weirder, you learn something new everyday. However in that learning, I see that there are many others out there who can help light my way toward better understanding and for that I am grateful, and for my part I am trying to do what I can every step along the way.

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Tuesday, April 22, 2008


I thought of one more thing I could tell the potential target. The target who wanted to know what the point was of these Gang Stalking websites were if they could not show her how to get justice for what was happening, or how to stop it. She can be vindicated.

I mean sometimes you know what you are talking about. You are telling the truth, but no one wants to believe you. I mean I went through years knowing that co-workers, family, friends, were using my sensitivity against me. However I could never prove it, because the gentlemen had come to town and taken away everyone's voices.

Anyways finding out about Gang Stalking was 100 and 10% vindication. It proved that the things that I had been saying or thinking were all true. I can't give target's justice, or even get this stopped 100% for many, but I can help some feel a little vindicated. It's hard when you know that you are telling the truth or know what you are talking about and everyone else around you is saying something else.

Anyways I was glad that I stayed home this weekend instead of going out. I would not have discovered a lot of the sites that I did. As mentioned I liked the site in 2 worlds. I believe people in many ways live in 2 worlds. Some without even realising it.

I think we live in other worlds via our thoughts, minds, and hearts. I think we even create worlds and situations that are so true they have the possibility of coming true. I often think about Lord of the rings and those really neat dream sequences between Aragorn/Arwen. I think it was neat that they loved each other so much that they could feel, hear each other, and visit each other in their dreams, no matter how far or long they were apart.

I liked both sequences where he dreams and is so at peace with her. I also like the sequence where he is in trouble and she knows and is there in spirit to help. I guess in real life we live in more than one world via situations like that at times.

I also like the sequence in that movie where she is about to leave to go on the ship to the elven world, and then she sees their spirit child. Their little prince. The future child of their hearts, and then she chooses to not go on the ship, but returns to her father.

I think it's neat because at that stage the little boy that she is seeing is just one possible future. Eg. If she had gotten on that ship, the future she was seeing would not exist. That scene reminds me that the choices we make in life can take us away from one destiny or move you towards another one. The future is not set, no choice but what we make.

That blog, plus the David Icke videos gave me a lot of food for thought on things like that. How people walk in 2 worlds, and metaphysical things. The nature of the universe. You know things like that.

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Monday, April 21, 2008

A weekend in the life of gangstalking.

A weekend in the life of gangstalking. Ok this weekend I was suppose to do some long overdue Targeted Individual shopping, but since I finally am starting to get back to doing my normal things that meant spending some time online and touching base with some people not related to gang stalking. Yes before this began I did have another life.

Ok this weekend was great. My youtube finally started functioning 100% again. I swear I am dating youtube sometimes. For the last two months it did not work as well as it should. The electronic harassment stuff does not seem to bother my computer, but the microwave stuff is not the best for me or my computer.

Anyways I spent the weekend catching up on my youtube vids that I had missed. I caught up on the David Icke series I had been wanting to see for some time. I caught up on some other videos that I had wanted to see. I also got to see the two banned episodes of this show called the boondocks. It was time well spent.


Let's go to newly discovered blogs next. I discovered all these great blogs this weekend. Most of them can be found on the links section of the website, but if you don't want to visit it on your own, let me highlight just a few of the many I discovered here.

Now this is Bills blog above. He is a retired pilot who lives in Floria. He has a wicked attitude and he is not afraid to scare off perps with the great liberal gun laws that Florida has. (Hey I am not advocating, but it was a funny and refreshing read.) However lately they have been hitting him with what sounds like microwaves as well. He's a tuff one like me and he is hanging in there. He says that Florida is a great place for targets cause they have all these liberal gun laws. Anyways a nice read and lot's of fun.

A blog by a Targeted Individual. The blog is suppose to be from a Christian perspective. (Aren't most of them?) Anyways, this target claims to have gotten over gang stalking. I am not sure that is the case, but the blog is a refreshing read. The story is told eloquently and it's easy to follow and just flows. I really enjoyed this blog more than I expected. I added some of the choice posts from this blog, to the posts with the most section of the site.

In 2 worlds. Oh my gosh this blog was just so in tune with what I was going through. Where my thoughts were heading. It really goes ahead of the game. I only got through a few really good quality posts. I wish I had had more time to get through the whole blog, but my weekend was a full one online. However this blog rounded out the day and it just seemed to fall right in line with all that I had read and experienced. For the first time since Gang Stalking started. I really feel like I am falling back in sync with where I am suppose to be. As you saw from the mini blurb I posted on the site.

Finding the potentials. You know from my last posting that I am on a real find the potentials kick. So really this weekend was all about that. I don't really know how to find them offline. Well accidentally I do, but not deliberately. There was that one time, but I ended up following the wrong person, this is before I understood more of the one handed sign language.

Anyways so I spent some time on google, yahoo, youtube trying to find them. That took up a good chunk of the weekend. However I discovered a site called

There was a group called "I Am Being Stalked And My House Is Being Bugged And Wiretapped - Forum " Can you believe that. There were like 5 people in that group, that had experienced this stuff. None of them had a name for what was happening to them, or anything. I think I can say I hit the jackpot with this group. So I spent the weekend emailing them, and just adding a whack of stuff to their group. Eg. Links, articles, books, videos,etc.

Before i got there they were getting the usual community support. Eg. You are nuts, why would strangers want to stalk you, you are not that important, have you seen a doctor, I was on drugs and thought that was happening to me. etc. Anyways I shone my gangstalking light into that darkness. Notice the haters faded away?

After that I started a Gang Stalking group on the site. This occupied most of my afternoon.

Feel free to join if you wish. Ok, but I did not stop there. I also found one more potential and someone who had questions.

I think this also sounds like it could be Gang Stalking.
Then I found this great Oprah thread. Bout time someone there strikes up the conversation.
I had other fun online, but I think that is the bulk of my shenanigans.

I also felt for once that i was experiencing something really spiritual. I realise that the body can be in one place, but the mind can almost be walking in 2 worlds. Again why discovering that blog was so in tune with my thoughts.

Anyways it was such a fulfilling weekend. I really felt in sync with so many things. I think spiritually I am getting back to where I need to be, where I was before a lot of this started.
The thing I am discovering about targets is more of what I knew. They are these bright, intelligent people. The things that they are into. When I read their blogs, it's just really shines through for me, and a lot of times I see a lot of me in their postings. It's amazing, but I am actually finding people I like, and would want to connect to. People that I have this amazing, albeit weird shared experience with. It's great in some ways, but painful in others, because I wish that I could do more.

Like one potential said to me on the weekend, what's the point of these sites if they can't tell us how to get justice or how to get this stuff to stop? My answer is that it's just knowing the truth, having the shared experience, knowing you are not going crazy. For me when I found out there was a name for what was happening to me, I was so happy. The potential I spoke to on the weekend, was crying, she could not believe that after how many years there was a name for
what was happening.

I do wish that I could have done more, but for now, being able to find her, and put a name to what was happening to her, (provided she was a real target) was all that I could do. I am hoping that by finding them, it will help to give them a fighting change. I know it did for me. I will always be grateful for finding that link to Gang Stalking. It answered years of questions, and it finally confirmed things that I suspected, but would not, could not voice. It was a light and if I can pay it forward I will.

Anyways, I have not heard back from any of the other potentials, but I will keep you updated. They all were sent emails, but wither they arrived, is another story.

Oh I also touched base with DaveinDublin, he has seen the post, but it's hard to say much else on the subject, so I won't.

Anyways, it was such a fulfilling and worthwhile weekend. I am sure the outside world missed me, but I was doing what I could do and it felt so good. Also it's the one weekend where if I was charged with a crime, I could pretty much prove my whereabouts, just by my online postings and interactions. Kinda neat. :-)

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Friday, April 18, 2008

Electronic Harassment 2

So I have lived at this new place ever since moving from the old place. As many people know the last place that I lived at is where I started experiencing the electronic harassment.

Ever since moving here I had about a about a week before they fully set up shop and started the electronic harassment. Most of the neighbours around me changed or moved out, in about a two month period. (I have blogged about this before.)

I have been at home here at my new place every single solitary night since I moved in, and it's been interesting.

As you know many targets do live by themselves, thus why we can often be so easily targeted. I would get a pet, but with the electronic harassment, I don't think it would be suitable to expose anything else to this, or to the risk of being mutilated. (Many targets report the mutilation or harming of their pets.)

Many of us do not have people around us that we trust to stay with, unless forced to do so. Eg. Many have family, but targets often have family who are already going along with the harassment. I am single so that leaves me with a choice of family or friends who I could stay with, but then I have trust issues, so that leaves me with a choice of me, and my apartment of fun. (I am not indicating that family would electronically harass me, at least I hope not, but the bytrayl thing, I am still working on that one.)

If you want to understand how a microwave could be used to harass someone then check out this video.

Now for me personally, I think most of my harassment has been ultrasonic weapons, such as however what's been used lately was different and I believe pulse wave weaponry is what we are looking at or something else.

It feels different. You get this extremely hot blast of air, that just goes through you, but it's 1000 times intense. After your muscles feel really horrible, like they are crying inside. It's painful for some reason. You get a lot more sensitive. (It like the human equivalent of having someone blast a hole in your ozone layer. If you had one.) You probably would not notice it, but you would feel the effects. (Kind of like the kids in the movie that movie where they start being so sensitive to sunlight they have to go inside all the time. Just not that bad, and most people would not notice.)

Anyways I took the time to go and meet the neighbours, I mean sometimes you just want to get a look at the evil that's frying you. I wanted to meet some of the people who have been trying to fry the life out of me for the last couple of months. Along with the Electronic harassment, they seem to have some kind of generator going on full blast, which is really making my apartment shake a lot. Eg. It would get so intense it would feel like one of those amusement park rides, where after you finish your brain is still swishing back and forth in your head. Now this can be fun for the first few days, but really after awhile it gets a little tedious.

The good news is anything they shake loose internally with the shaking, they can probably nuke with the microwaving. Kidney stones anyone? My neighbours will shake them loose for you, and then fry them out of you, so you won't even have to pass them. Seriously though, it was an intense couple of months.

I find that shielding with natural materials works well. However I think it might be time for a visit to

Anyways what I am doing has been working, but before I ramped up the shielding it was interesting. As you know they try to do this stuff when they think you are sleeping so they can hit you dead on. Also they do this a few times a night, so you get to sleep and then get awoken by this, if you could fall asleep due to the extreme shaking.

I guess over the last couple of months they assumed that I had something evil inside that had to be exorcised out. I have exorcised the Gang Stalking demons. Seriously it was not fun, but it was fun to learn what things could be used for shielding on short notice. It was also good to try to meet the challenge and again go the distance.

I usually don't blog about the E-harassment, because it's not that exciting, but this was a little different and so I thought I would share.

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Thursday, April 17, 2008

Some companies are evil.

I was just thinking about some of the stalking and the mobbing that some of are experiencing. I was reminiscing on the fact that some companies are evil. Most I guess. It's easier for them to ruin someones life, have them stalked, slandered or erased rather than try to do the right thing and fix a problem if they have created one.

Most companies don't have smart, credible people. Some do, but most don't. I am also guessing as you get closer to the top, the worst it get's in some companies. I have seen people get promoted because the company wanted to use them to help get rid of or cover up for some misdeeds.

The bullying research Tim Fields was doing showed a lot of the same thing. Patterns of promotions to help cover up bullying. I realise it only gets worst as you go along. I was just thinking about the last few places that I had worked at.

My awareness of my induction into the world of Gang Stalking came after I finally worked up the nerve to go to the human right commission about what had been 2 full years of workplace mobbing. For my efforts and to silence me, that's when I first started to get the really overt signs that I was being stalked and monitored and that is also when I was introduced to electronic harassment. There was always a correlation looking back. Anytime I went to HR or tried to get the mobbing stopped, it would always escalate outside of the workplace. Of-course back then I still thought it was something simple and it was just people from work getting their friends to mob me outside of work as well. What I now know is that the company used the situation that I was not aware of, to try to harass me into silence. To also try to break me down.

Knowing what I know now, and having read the reports from others, I see the pattern really clearly now, but hindsight is 20/20 right.

This got me thinking about my most recent bought with electronic harassment. I mean I have been getting harassed, but what happened over the last couple of months was more intense. It also correlated with the questionable circumstances involved with my dismissal from my last job. The electronic harassment not only consisted of microwaving me on a consistent basis several times per day, but whatever they were doing was several times worst than what was being done before. I can't say for sure there is a correlation, but it got me thinking. I don't know why I never questioned if there was a correlation. Not saying there was, but I never questioned or associated the two.

It's just I realise that some companies when they discover they have made a mistake or an error, they don't go about doing the right thing to try to correct it. Their policies are if you screw up cover up. Figure out how we can keep this person quit, or how we can eliminate that witness or this person etc. I have read about so many whistle-blowers and accidents, or mishaps, fake suicides, etc. Companies don't play nice, I guess it's easier that way.

The last company that I worked for had a real workplace bully issue, whither they knew it or not. They also had a culture that really didn't help to do anything about it. I mean I watched the workplace bully manager in question, seat people on multiple occasion together in situations that were not for the companies good, but that were designed to create conflict if possible. The problem is this company didn't seem to be aware of this or if they were, they didn't seem to really care. Bullies ruin lives period, and they cost companies money in the long run, and company that houses, fosters and protects bullies, don't have their employees best interests at heart, and you have to wonder if they have their customers interests at heart in the long run?
Some companies are also rife with gossip, breathing air and gossip in companies seem to go hand in hand.

The last place I worked for had a culture of this. As I have blogged about a few times before. Having been the focus of gossip a few times, I can say that some companies are better than others for getting things corrected, others are not. I spent about a month or so at the last company, trying to extract myself from gossip, to no avail. I realise that people feed off of gossip and slander, they really do. If companies are bad, then sometimes the people within the companies are worst. Some places foster a really immature culture, from the top to the bottom.

Anyways I was thinking about the laws in society and they allow companies to get away with a lot of this stuff. I was reading about 2 female executives that were let go without cause from some telecommunications company, wrongful dismissal. Companies use the fact that they don't have to provide a reason to get get rid of people consistently. So you could be the center of some cooked up scenario, you didn't fully know about, and have the company decide you are not a good fit and not ever know the real reason. From a few sources that I have talked to, this happens a lot. One source that I spoke to said they had a female employee hired to be a receptionist, she dressed better than most of the people in the company, came in with furs from time to time etc. The people felt that she was a snob who thought she was better then everyone else, and eventually the company gave her some cheap excuse and let her go. I got a few other scenarios that were the same, but that's the gist of it, companies can do this, and do this more and more increasingly.

I think in time this can only in some companies foster a really hostile workplace environment. When I first started doing research into harassment and workplaces, one of the things I discovered is that many workers would be more happy with an apology from a company that had done them wrong, then with financial compensation. In many cases people were just looking for an apology, but because companies can not say sorry we were wrong, without putting themselves at risk, many simply have policies in place that force workers to seek out closure legally. Many disputes could be sorted outside of the courts if companies just found a way to say sorry, isn't that sad?

Anyways, haven't had much time to stop and think over the last couple of months, because the focus has been on shielding, but the last time I had to focus on shielding was some company trying to keep me quite and distracted, and here I have been over the last couple of months having to ramp it up again, and it correlates with ambiguous circumstances of the last job. Companies can be evil, but again the people in companies have and do play a role in the culture that they create within the company.

Some cultures like gossip and slander, others are a little more mature. Some companies are lucky enough to have intelligent management in place and that seems to also trickle down to the types of people that they hire, some companies have not very intelligent bully elements in place, and that also seems to trickle down to the culture created in the environment, to the detriment of many, often innocent people. I guess in the long run, if companies are going to change, then the culture has to change, each person has to do their part to try to make their environments better if they can.

I am almost always out of the gossip loop in places that I work, but I am also almost always the center of gossip. Same with a lot of other targets, guess it just works better that way. Anyways just some quit reflections that I have not had time to blog about till now.

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Wednesday, April 09, 2008

So where have I been?

I have been taking an emotional break from it all. Sometimes the Gang Stalking thing can get a little bit weary and tiring, I mean we are all human right?

Also the every day mundane stuff, trying to go to work, and then do all the other boring stuff, knowing what you know, and for me trying to make a difference can be a lot.
I used my in between work time to get a fresh perspective on things. I feel recharged now, and am getting my perspective back. In other words, this Soldier is getting ready to go back into the fight.

I think that’s what you have to do sometimes, just take some me time, and that can be hard under any condition, but especially with Gang Stalking.

Now for me it’s not just Gang Stalking, it’s the electromagnetic harassment and microwave harassment. I mean the being followed around stuff is bad enough, but the electronic stuff is just as bad or worst.

Now I could let this stuff totally get me down, and I have my moments, where I am like, I can’t believe this is happening, but you can let it bring you down, or you can bring it down.

You can see the glass as half empty, or part full. I am still at the part full stage. So I could use the electronic stuff as an opportunity to wallow in misery, or as an opportunity to test out new shielding and to see what does work, and I choose the latter. (Well after giving myself a mental shrug and hug of course.)

Also during my selfish me time, I caught up on movies. I mean with the research and stuff, I have been so neglected for my movies, and it was nice to catch up on a lot of sequels that I wanted to see. The me time was great. Sometimes you just have to remember what it was like to human and stuff. I still had the Gang Stalking, Electronic Harassment around me, but inside my home, that is my space, and that is what you have to claim anyway you can, and if you don’t have a home, then try to make you, your home.

It’s in the mind a lot of it, we can let it break us, or we can break it. (Did anyone ever see the movie brave heart? Good movie)

So anyways of all the movies that I saw or caught up on, I say Pirates of the Caribbean 3 and The Golden Compass, I am legend was sort of boring, (really boring) I saw a few others, but those were really good.

So fresh perspective. I think we have to wake up the potentials, or get others to help us wake up the potentials. I mean there are more like us asleep and if they were awake, think how much stronger we would be, and these potentials that the state will try to hunt and target like us, are probably the best hope to help try to turn this around.

Also we might not win, but we have to try to do what we can, no fate but what we make sort of thing.

I also believe that revolution starts in the hearts and the minds of the people, long before we ever see it out in the real world, and I think that is where people’s hearts and minds should be.
For me they have been really trying hard to break me, more so than usual. First the electronic harassment, they have ramped up the shacking room thing, so at first it felt like I was in a milkshake thing, being shaken, and then they would do the microwave thing really high, like on blast high, so it was a fun couple of months.

I learnt more about shielding and what works and does not work for me. Needless to say, I have my sleep back, and I feel way better. The harder they try, the harder I have to try.

I have been coming up with some new spring campaigns that some of us might want to do in public. We really need to wake up people, the ones that are still sleeping. The people that are following targets who are not aware need to help try to wake them up. Remember if we don’t the future will be even more messed up than now.

I also think if people are going to make a difference they need to have some kind of faith. I believe if a revolution is to happen someday in the future, then you need God now as much as the Israelites fleeing Egypt needed God. I can’t see a successful revolution in hearts, minds or deed without a strong guiding hand, stronger than the enemies at the gate.

I feel more hopeful, considering the buggers are trying to really have a go at me, but I am happy to be here, trying to help, trying to do what I can. I have the chance to make a difference in the lives of others, and that is something I always wanted to do, and no matter what was happening to me, it seems like this is something that I was always going to be doing.

We are watching the world wake up from history, and we have a chance to change history.
I am choosing to have my cup be half full for the time being. I am actually fairly happy right now, and that’s not just because I saw date movie, which was pretty funny. No, it’s because I have hope, faith, and I believe in God, and I believe in his power and ability to make a difference, I also understand more than before than faith is one of the most powerful things in the world.

So I am more hopeful than before, but I do know that there is a road ahead, but I will not let them make me miserable. You can be alive and dead inside, I choose to be alive, the outer man parisheth, but the inner man remains, (something like that, it’s from the bible, it just means that we get older, and decaying on the outside, but the inside person grows stronger daily.) I believe that to be true.

I bring you what hope I can. I give what I can, and what I have to give. I bring peace and hope and share that where I can. I know it’s a pretty scary time, for those of us who are awake and know what’s happening, but it’s also an exciting time, because we can stand and we can make a difference, we can do what we can, we can make or break history, we have the power, it’s all about how we choose to use it.

So anyways, if you can find some me time, no matter what you are going through, I suggest you do.

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