Still pretty happy
Still pretty happy
I am sorry that I have not updated this sooner. I pretty private person, but I think sharing bit's and pieces here and there would not be too amiss.
The last couple of years kept me on the outside of a part of my life I really wanted to be in on. I felt excluded and I hated that, it made me feel like I was not a part of the equation, just a passive viewer, if even that. It's like being semi-remote viewer on your own life, always on the outside, wondering what is going on. Feeling only valued for one purpose and not much else. I have been there and I hated it.
What I hate even more would be to unintentionally make anyone feel that way, cause that would not be the case. People have value and that's how I feel.
Lately I have been trying to stay out of my spiritual side to a degree, again not cause I want to be, because I am happier than I have been in a really long time, but it's cause I realise like I said before, spirit is just not as divisable as I use to think, and maybe that is because I was on the outside looking in so much.
I am failing miserable at times, cause being happy is contagious and who does not like to be happy? Anyways I find myself happy, smiling, and that flows through, wither I want it to or not. I feel at peace, balanced, and just hormonic.
I feel joy, and that's a good thing. On a spiritual level, everything is fine, and in a legitimate place "to the best of my knowledge." My internal dialouge seems to be fine, I do find that I am picking up a bit of a "Hick Twang" from somewhere, when I tune into my internal dialouge it's there, and it cracks me up, wonder where that could be coming from? :-)
Anyways, I think that's as much appropriate sharing on this side that I can do. I am happy in spirit, and it shines through into this realm.