Spiritual Liability

Spiritual Liability

What is a spiritual liability? Apparently there are people that you feel are not suitable on earth and those would be considered earth liabilities, well it seems if some would have their way, spirits are now to be classified in similar manner.

Think about what this means, we are one connected world in our dreams, we can connect with people that we do not know, people we may never encounter on this realm. Tribes of the past use to use dreams to connect to the ancestors. That's kind of neat right.

The slave who is bound with chains during the day, can at least be free in their dreams.

The begger who watches his princess marry another, may at least scale her palace gates, and access his love, and they may be together if only in their dreams.

The young child who works on the street corner by day, can at least dream of a better existence at night in dreams.

Humanity which cries out for a savior, can conspire in their sleep for one such as this to be called forth.

I believe that long before many things happen, or take shape on this realm, they happen in spirit. I believe that maybe we even meet people we are suppose to know on some higher spiritual plane and spirits conspire to meet on earth. I know that sounds crazy, but how many times have we heard stories of people meeting their future spouses and they feel as if they have meet before, maybe even in a dream?

It's wonderful to think that dreams allow us freedoms that we might never have on this realm, that dreams can free us, that even if we are government targets in one realm, we might at least have freedom in another, but what is someday science and technology are able to control our dreams?

What if someday we can even be controlled in our sleeps, or enslaved in our sleeps? Seen as spiritual liabilities who are denied access to certain people. What if someday someone can come, and from a distance sell you out to some government or other agency to rob you of your dreams? How monstrous would that be? How God like would we think of ourselves if we could do such things?

Imagine a world where even in dreams some think of themselves as so high and mighty that they do not want to be bothered with the spiritual riff raff, if they think themselves too high or powerful that a command can be given to keep one entity away from another. A world where the spiritual soul can be controlled, dear I even say mind controlled, where that part of the mind could be interfered with to keep an entity away from another, or to only interact with those that others have deemed suitable.

I don't want to imagine a world such as this, but I fear that this is the type of world we will be finding ourselves in sooner than expected. As you know I have been doing the research on the Remote Neural Monitoring, Dream Manipulations, etc and it's pretty scary what society is capable of, and what people are willing to do to others without even thinking twice. A simple command and someone life in dreams as well as while awake is ruined.

I really do not want to imagine a world or that such as this, but I am too much of a realist to realize that our technology is making it true.

What I do know is that in my awake world, I am outspoken, it's a trait that I do not wish to live without. I would defend those that I care about and that I think are worthy of defending. I don't think that I am the worst person in the world, but I also do not at present have the status or financial means that some enjoy in this realm. Therefore in this realm, I don't mind some barriers, or if some think themselves too great for an association.

In my dreams however it's a different story. Unlike my awake realms, my dream realm is to be a free, obscured plain of existence. I don't expect people to spiritually interfere with me, or obstruct my course, anymore than they would expect me to obstruct theirs.
In my dreams I seem to be more social, and I am less conservative in some ways than I am in others, but there is a kindness about my spirit that I am found of. Unfortunately I seem to be less discriminating in my dreams, and seem willing to associate with a variety of people that I can't imagine I would associate with in my awake realm.

In dreams my spirit is not limited by financial or social status. I think in dreams my spirit would be deemed suitable in some ways, but for some, unsuitable in others. (Some items can only be truly appreciated by the right collectors.) What I do know is that there is a kindness about my spirit that I have grown found of. An innocence I see in dreams, that I have long lost in this realm, a willingness to believe in the goodness of others, and their intentions. A naiveté that can be ill afforded, but one that I can not control in spirit. A warmth that I have long nestled away, and am no longer willing to share with this world. A child like innocence, a virtue I have long lost in many ways still exists within some part of me, that I like to think of as the soul. I am happy to see those traits if only in my dreams. It's hard for me to imagine that there are those who would now create sciences that would access such realms, and try to do unwell things in our dreams, but this is the very reality that we are looking at with such technology. We live in a world where our sciences would soon allow us to think that we are near Gods, very dangerous indeed.

Imagine if in dreams you were prevented from associating with your future soul mate, cause someone thought to keep you from specific circles, because they thought too well of themselves?

Imagine in dreams humanity being enslaved, and leaders like Joan of ark thought to be too base to meet with the king, or made to dream basic dreams and so prevented in spirit as well as on earth, how many great destinies and history might be lost with such thinking?

Imagine Joseph and Mary in dreams being turned away, because they were not deemed suitable for the inn, and a young child dying out in the cold. Or in dreams if a young child had been found by Harold and his blood lust what might have been. Imagine if dreams shaped reality in some way?

I don't claim to be an expert on dreams. Till a few years back, my dreams were pretty normal, it's only in the last few years that my dreams have begun to play a bigger role, in my awareness of things. For some reason my targeting put me in touch with my dreams. I guess as a part of the survival process, it became necessary, but I also think that things do not necessarily happen before their time.

I have become more aware that dreams are a connection to the soul. I believe that we often do meet people in dreams before we ever meet them on the face of the earth. So maybe some of the old traditions are not so silly, traditions such as putting items under a pillow to see your future soul mate in dreams.

I believe we invent things in our dreams, some of our great discoveries such as the double helix have come from dreams, some of the greatest puzzles have been solved in dreams. Some people even have predictive dreams such as President Lincoln dreaming his own death, or Mark Twain dreaming of the death of his brother. http://www.eyewitnesstohistory.com/lincoln.htm

Some people have dreams of other worlds, and other realms, and the images that they bring back, often lead to new inventions. Some even have dreams where they see loved one's who have passed away, or ancestors from times past. Some people see, interact with and are visited by angel's in their dreams, such as Jacob and his ladder from the bible. Dreams are an amazing connection to the soul, and imagine if that gateway could be blocked, stifled, interfered with, or access cut off? Imagine if shared dreams create a future destiny, and if those dreams could be interfered with by removing a specific dreamer, how many leaders, and Saviour's in human history might not have been called forth?

Dreams are an amazing thing, even at it's best our science can not fully explain them. Some leaders dream of greatness first and later achieve that greatness based on those dreams, now imagine if someone in their arrogance, saw another as unworthy and dared to take away those dreams before they could ever be formed, created, observed? Imagine if events in our realms are shaped by such, how much we could change the course of history? I dare say we would likely not change the course for the better. Imagine the abuses that could be taking place and most would never be aware. That is the future that humanity could be looking at if these technologies get into the hands of the wrong people.

For me personally what I do know is that I liked my dreams, they were fun, fulfilling, as you know lately I have not dreamt the way that I use to, my dreams seem to be filled with fluff, mind attics and dream stages, dreams of mind programing, and handlers, dreams that are rejected time and time again. My regular dreams I long to have, but seem prevented from having. A feeling that something has changed, a morphic resonance of memory, but no recollection of what the change is. Just a feeling that is stronger and deeper than anything that can be destroyed. I guess much like time, even if dreams can be changed or destroyed, there would still be a morphic resonance, a scream on the soul of human destiny that something was just not right, a trace, something that needed to be correct, a knowing, but no way to readily make corrections.

I like to think that intelligent people could understand the ramifications of these actions, others would just abuse the power, in their human stupidity. Don't like your wife's dreams of Fabio, stop her from dreaming about Fabio. Don't think that guy is good enough for your daughter? Stop him from even thinking about her in dreams. Don't like the way your co-worker dreams about beating the heck out of others at the office, stop them from dreaming about that. Don't like the way that street begger Aladdin is always dreaming about a princess, stop his dreams. You can see where I am going with this.

If we ever have the power to achieve this, what advantages might be taken, who might be deemed a spiritual liability? I am sure many great leaders of our time could have fallen into this category. Which leaders would not be, because someone stopped them from dreaming great dreams, cause they felt that the person should only dream average dreams? What battles would have been won and lost if dreams could be changed, manipulated, or never dreamed at all? Who in their arrogance would be so unkind and so cruel, and would try to circumvent God? I believe to interfare with dreams, would be considered direct interfarance with the soul purpose, and I believe if ever such a time comes, there would be a great and terrible reconning to behold.

For now though, I am just some person in this realm, no great status to speak of, no great financial assessts to impress the bling, bling crowd, but a fine mind, a kind soul, and a future that I hope to live unencumbered in my awake realm, and in my dream realms. Also being the snob that I am in this realm, if someone ever thought that I was not suitable or worthy, they would not have to worry about me trying to form an association with them, it would be the other way around. For in this realm, I do not easily forget insults or forgive, those memories at least seem to be quite eternal.

In my dreams I am not there yet, but I hope to teach my spirit a little bit of this social snobbery that I have learnt, so that my spirit will know better than to associate with those that would deem my spirit as unworthy, that would treat my spirit as less than, that would take advantage of the innocent spirit I see in my dreams, that would circumvent a spirit so harmless, and kind. I hope for my spirits sake if I am ever able to dream again, my dreams, that I can impart this lesson, so that my spirit would know better as I do.

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.
Eleanor Roosevelt

Balance

Balance

Life needs balance. You can't take from one and not give back to the other. I have written about this before, that the last few months have been very good for me in spirit. I have felt supported and happy, and I think I ended up in a place that was good for me.

In flesh I don't think I have had the same balance. In fact it's been at times the opposite. In flesh I have not progressed as much in some ways. I don't mean that I have been unhappy in flesh exactly, but sometimes it's like watching one aspect of your world expand in a positive direction, and momentum, and watching the other slow down.

Some things in flesh did progress, but others have not, and I am trying to move forward to find that balance. I am not in the place where I need to be here, and have not touched based with the sources that I should here, and I know that internally. See when you are around the right sources, the bad sources tend to fully vacate from your life. I have had some success, but to meet my full potential and grow, change is needed.

See sometimes you get so comfortable in one place, you don't want to change it, because you don't know if you will ever be that comfortable again. But to find balance in life sometimes you have to. It's like you have the perfect job, but live in a climate where your allergies are getting worst and worst. Do you keep the perfect job, or remove yourself from where you are happy, so that your allergies can get better, and you can have that balance? It's that trepedition, that keeps you from changing, you might be wondering, will I ever have a job I love this much again, but if you don't move, your allergies will never get better.

A lot of things are like the analogy above, you sacrifice one aspect of your life so that another can be happy, but to have true contentment, you need balance. So to continue with the analogy, I am leaving the perfect job, to try to find a place where things are all balanced. Change is never easy, in fact sometimes it's quite the emotional upheaval, but without change there is no growth. The worry ofcourse is if you give up the perfect job, will you find another, and will you find a place, where your allergies won't act up?

Now don't get me wrong if you are in a place that you like, and you are not stagnating that is fine, but if you realise that you are not growing, that things are not changing, then sometimes you have to make those changes, no mater how painful that might be.

Sometimes you have to be a bit of a visionary and picture the end result. If balance is what you seek, then you have to be specific about the type of balance that you want. For me I want a spiritual, balance, so that is where my focus will be. I admit however that it's slow progress.

It's like dealing the perfect deck of cards on the one hand, only to realise that you have short changed yourself on the other hand. If you want a fair game, then you have to reshuffle. I have a deep spiritual reluctance to do so, but logic on the other hand dictates that I must. I know it's the likely path to find the balance that I want.

So if you are sacrificing one area of your life for another, do a check, is it a balance that you can live with or without, and if not, then try to find ways to even things out.

(Yes I know, not really a Gang Stalking post, but good advice all around.)

Lothlorien I will find you again

To my safe place which provided comfort and safety to my spirit. I found you at a time when my spirit needed rest, security and safety. Though I did not know it at the time, you were a resting place that I would come to adore. A vital element, that changed everything for the better, just when my spirit was running low.

You provided safety, security, kept the dark forces at bay, for a time, as best as you could. But Lothlorien, is not meant to be a fortress, it is meant to be a place to restore, replenish, renew, and you have done that and so much more. To stay on these shores, is to leave this fairy place open to the dark forces that roam.

Lothorien is a safe haven, that I grew to love well. My spirit found peace. My resources in spirit were renewed. I was protected and safe. I have no desire to leave. I would stay and lazy about if I could. In spirit it's is such a lovely place to abide in.



Yet I seek it's equal out in flesh, and such a place is not available, such a place is only available in spirit. To know of such a place is spirit, yet to not be able to find it's rest in flesh is bittersweet.



I am off to find my fortress. I am off to find a Minas Tirith of my own. I seek a fortress of my own, which is accessible in spirit and flesh. A fortress to keep the dark forces at bay. A permanent place of rest. But my eyes can not look away from Lothorian, my mind lingers at it's gates. My feet stay bound to it's shores. I think my beautiful place, i will find you again. Maybe next time, this safe haven will be accessible from all planes.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OQljFLpbPPQ

Mind, Body, Spirit

A short time ago I was putting these categories into separate compartments, not cause I wanted to, but because I felt that it was necessary.

Spirit

Some time ago I was lucky enough in spirit to come across a situation that really helped me to get to where I wanted to be. In spirit I have been happy lately, fulfilled. I found a situation that was well matched, and well suited to my needs. A situation that I am spiritually connected to, open to at times, even starting to want to trust a little bit.

Through space, and time my request for something better was granted in a most peculiar way, that still leaves me surprised at times, but mostly smiling at others.

Where I am now in spirit from my perspective has been most wanted, welcome, and oh so needed. In some ways I am able to be more tuned into my spirit, in other ways, not so much so.

Mind

Because I have been more happy in spirit my mind has been far more engaged, and happy. Thus it's been even easier to have very little interaction with the informants. My sojourns have been pleasant. Over the last couple of days I hardly noticed them more than needed, and had no unnecessary, or unpleasant interactions with any of them.

When you are happy in spirit your mind tends to want to follow. However I am a realist and there are things of an worldly nature that must still be dealt with.

Body

This is still a work in progress. Right now it's very different than the other areas of my life due to this type of targeting, and I wish it were otherwise. The electronic monitoring and systemic targeting continues.

What I do know is that when you are happy on one level, and the other aspects of you life are not in sync with that, you are more aware of the imbalance. It's unfortunate, and at times leaves me wishing that i could get some kind of synergy happening in all areas.

Anyways I do now realize once again that these areas are not separate as most people would like to believe. I am praying deeply that a way can be found to overcome the targeting not just for myself, but for many others. Now that I know what it is, trying to find sources that will help is the next step.

Feeling happy and settled on one level does point out the parallel circumstances more accuetly at times, but then it's also helped me to define what my ideal circumstances would be, in another way.

Still pretty happy

Still pretty happy

I am sorry that I have not updated this sooner. I pretty private person, but I think sharing bit's and pieces here and there would not be too amiss.

The last couple of years kept me on the outside of a part of my life I really wanted to be in on. I felt excluded and I hated that, it made me feel like I was not a part of the equation, just a passive viewer, if even that. It's like being semi-remote viewer on your own life, always on the outside, wondering what is going on. Feeling only valued for one purpose and not much else. I have been there and I hated it.

What I hate even more would be to unintentionally make anyone feel that way, cause that would not be the case. People have value and that's how I feel.

Lately I have been trying to stay out of my spiritual side to a degree, again not cause I want to be, because I am happier than I have been in a really long time, but it's cause I realise like I said before, spirit is just not as divisable as I use to think, and maybe that is because I was on the outside looking in so much.

I am failing miserable at times, cause being happy is contagious and who does not like to be happy? Anyways I find myself happy, smiling, and that flows through, wither I want it to or not. I feel at peace, balanced, and just hormonic.

I feel joy, and that's a good thing. On a spiritual level, everything is fine, and in a legitimate place "to the best of my knowledge." My internal dialouge seems to be fine, I do find that I am picking up a bit of a "Hick Twang" from somewhere, when I tune into my internal dialouge it's there, and it cracks me up, wonder where that could be coming from? :-)

Anyways, I think that's as much appropriate sharing on this side that I can do. I am happy in spirit, and it shines through into this realm.

Affirmation

This is a little affirmation. It's just a quick follow up to the I Am Happy post.

I want to stay happy. For me this means on a spiritual level staying as far away as I can from those things that made me unhappy. It means not going back to the darkness, and staying in the light.

I like breathing in air. I like when an experience is right the fact that it just flows. For me the last few years really shook my beliefs in how things worked when they were right, how things flowed. The reason being that in some spiritual aspect, I was not in a good place, where things flowed, where things worked. I just was not happy.

The brief glimpse of happy that I had restored my faith in that, brought air back into my lungs, and I don't ever willingly or unwilling want to be dragged back into that place. It was an unappreciated place, that did not love or care for me, it was a place that brought me unhappiness.

I feel the flow that I had not felt for awhile, and I don't want anything to do with the place where I was. I see now that when you are around the right situations, people, that love you, care for you, nurture you, it makes all the difference, and it's as clear as a bell.

There is no confusion, psychological manipulation, no game, just a free flow, and that is where I am going to be. I am moving forward. I think the glimpse of what a happy stable, well cared for spirit, has been an inspiration for me.

It's restored my faith in a lot of things. I find now that I am able to distance myself from things and people that are not good for me on a physical plane. I still wish I had more control of distancing, or permanently removing unwanted elements, on a spiritual level, but I think that will come in time.

Being happy, even if it's for a moment makes such a difference. I feel back in my game, so this is just a quick affirmation of that.


The old game, that was played for the last few years stop here. I am moving forward, I am distancing myself from the last few years of things that did not work for me in spirit, I want nothing to do with that path, it was not a well path, and it is not something that I want.

I have found new paths, that have been kind, warm, welcoming, and those paths, or similar are where I will be in spirit, and if I can find similar on this plane, I might just do the same.

Happy

http://gangstalking.wordpress.com/2008/05/10/the-veil/

I am happy. I have not been able to say this for a really long time.

I mean the gang stalking has not been great, but even that get's old after a time. The same stupid stunts, people that I think are too stupid to wash a car, much less following me around, I watch them act hysterical at times and think, gosh they are stupid. After a time I learned to tune that out, and focus on my spirit.

See I really do believe that we are mind, body and spirit. I think we are spirit, having a human experience. You hear that on talk shows a lot, but what does it mean?

As I have explained before, I think we start off as spirit and come to earth, or other plains of existence to have experiences we could not have in spirit.

I believe one thing I came here to learn was about man's inhumanity to man and how that could happen. When I was younger, the history books, just could not explain how people could be so mean to each other, how they could hurt each other so much. WWII Germany and the events that happened as taught by the history books made no sense, and a large part of what I wanted to do was understand how people could be so mean to each other. I understand this now. Without the Gang Stalking, I could not have. So was this experience arranged to help me understand, reach a higher spiritual level? Maybe. Maybe this experience was called into my realm, cause I so desperately wanted to understand how people could be so mean to each other.


Still aside from that, I wanted to focus on my spirit. Gang Stalking can really kill the spirit, if you let it. It put's you in the midst of people who hate you for no real justifiable reason except they believe some fake label that you have been given, is it right, is it fair? No but it's life.

A couple of years ago, I thought I was going to embark on a truly wondrous spiritual journey. I though maybe I was going to be lucky and finally understand more spiritual things. Instead I think I let in some bad spiritual elements, which took my soul on a bad journey, that I could have done without. I think I really tuned out of some things spiritual, because I simply was not happy, and wanted things to change on a spiritual level, but did not know how to make it so. I believe we have a human will, and a spiritual will, and the two do not have to see eye to eye.

So I just tuned out, and I think when you are around bad or parasitic elements, if they see the opportunity, they will just take advantage, and it draws worst, and worst things into your realm. Also more and more paracitic elements. I think also the opposite is true, when you have good elements around you, it makes a world of differenct. I think that is where I was. Then I did a lot of praying. Some times when you are bummed out, you forget what an effective weapon prayer is. But I prayed, and recently, much to my absolute shock and amazement, I tuned into my spirit to find that my spirit is happy.

Happy is not the right word, but it's the polite one that I have decided to use. Somewhat like going from a sunless sky for years, to your first rays of light in a very long time. Like breathing in air again. Ofcourse tuning into my spirit created a few dilemmas. Awareness is such a strange thing, however being spiritually aware, even if it's only a little bit changes things, vs someone who is completely blank.

I think two people could be in the exact same place spiritually and one be really aware and affected by it and another not. In researching Gang Stalking, I was surprised that there were quite a few targets that were emotionally aware of the energy draining affect of being around the informants. I think I have discussed spiritual shielding before and why it's needful in a situation such as the ones we find ourselves in.

So my spirit is in a legitimate place, a bit settled and happy, but I am here, being Gang Stalked and trying to prove the conspiracy. I wrote a long time that I think you can live in two worlds, by saying that, I was referring to a blog I came across http://www.in2worlds.net, and by that I just mean you can have a physical experience, but be aware of your spiritual life as well.

I think for me this creates another dilemma currently, and being happy in spirit, really does bleed through the matrix, just like being sad in spirit does. I deeply hated being unhappy in spirit, cause you feel like spirit is this thing that is separate, that you have no control over. I still feel this way, but I think you can influence your spirit for the better, and I think that is something each person should strive to do.

So dilemma that I had I temporarily solved it. I have to some degree tuned out of my spirit again, blocked out some aspects, not cause I want to, but I think it's the right thing to do for the time being. I am a bit of a wet blanket that way.

I do know now that when I dream, I am happy, I just don't recall too many of them, but I like dreaming now, where I don't think I did for a while previous to this.

I think it's good to be aware of the fact that we are body, mind, and spirit, but it's also good to be aware that it can cause some unexplained delima's sometimes.

So my gratitude for sleep that is actually peaceful, and an internal world that is for once calm, and well. My awake world remains as it always has been, but I have a slight, faint awareness of being happy, somewhere else, and the little that I let through, I am grateful for.

Truth vs Fiction. Mind over Matter.

The good news? Insanity paranoid or gaslighting, still seem to be some of the best tricks of the trade that these people have. Sometimes it feels like you are almost dealing with Beavis and Butthead, but a very virulent form of the two.

Now I did do a few posts about my emails, and it's a good idea to try to fix the problem on your own, but then you also want to let other targets be aware of techniques that are being used, and that will be used, without sounding paranoid and crazy.

So how do you walk that fine line? Just tell the truth as best as you know it.

1. Emails bouncing. This escalated by about 80% since January. Is it possible that 80 plus percent of the people that I have been emailing have really bad mailboxes? Yes it's possible, it it likely. Not really. The frequency seems to be outside of what can be expected, from multiple email accounts in different locations.

It's not just any emails. The bounced emails have a specific theme to them. I have tested this out in several ways.

By sending emails that have to arrive right away. I will send an email and watch it not arrive. I will use another account and watch it arrive right away. Spam and junk emails arrive, important emails do not. It's an interesting test to watch.

I mentioned that I tested this with the gangstalking world email. I tested sending email. Anything that had a spam title made it through, anything that had a useful title or urgent title, either did not make it though, or made it through hours or days later.

Is every email failure going to be a part of the Gang Stalking? No not necessarily. What I would look at is frequency, different accounts, doing specific testing, etc.

I have mentioned my ability to post on specific sites are being affected. This happened before when I first started to post about Gang Stalking, it had not happened again till recently, but it's the same pattern of prevention.

Another thing I noticed, I have joined dozens of forums, over the years to talk about Gang Stalking. 99% of the forums I register to, you get through right away. Since the articles came out, forums that I join to discuss the articles, had a wait for moderation que, for the account to be approved, which did not happen in some cases. Now I can't prove this definitely, but 99% of the time, no forums had waiting for admin approval, then after the article about 75% of the sites that I tried to join had this feature. Might just have been a coincidence, but it's something to be aware of.

The other thing that I mentioned is that I joined one site as gangstalking, tried to post a reply, suddenly I had this message that the site was under construction and would be back in an hour. So I waited nothing. So I opened a new window. I tried to log in with the same account. The same thing happened, under construction. I then created a new account, with a different name, and was allowed to post, without the under construction sign. Yet if I tried to login again with the gangstalking name, the same thing happened. It was interesting so I took pics of it.

I find that it helps when you come across little unique things like this to try to explain what is happening.

As far as this is concerned, it's just their way of seeing what is working. If the target reacts, or complains strongly about something, they will do it the more, if the target does not react or complain, they will try something else. I find that you can use this technique against them, if you can get them to deliberately do something to incriminate, or get them to do something really obvious and record it then more power to you.

Otherwise blogging or posting about it will only feed the pigeons and there is no point in doing this unless you can document it in a credible fashion, or use it against them. So that's something to be aware of.

For emails that are missing. I find that it's nice to request a read receipt, this way you know it's arriving. Wither you will get it back is another story.

For the bouncing email, create other accounts. I do believe this is getting done quite deliberately. Again the military created the internet. We know that email communications are monitored, filtered and yes can be disrupted. Others have talked about it, but it's up to us to find workarounds.

I think what might be nice to do is have a little chat box on the site, so that people could confirm that email has been sent, so if you don't receive it, at least you will know.

So that seems to be it so far. The best they have is trying to still irritate that target so that they
will irrationally freak out and thus destroy their own credibility, when they are not trying to do it for you. Again it's just a matter of stepping back and relearning some of the lessens that you already knew, and just not feeding the pigeons.

The other subject that I wanted to address, mind over matter. They want to engage your mind so that your thoughts are on them. This way your thoughts are not on your kids, forming new relationships, having fun, living, they want to suck the etheric life out of you, basically. So if you can get your mind around it, over it, under it, you have a fighting chance. This again requires great, consistent focus. They really do want to become the center of your world, so if you can center your world, and find something else, something useful to be absorbed with, you have a greater chance of getting rid of them. They want you to forget that you are a great spiritual being, capable of great things. These people want to bring every interaction down to it's lowest common denominator, and we must no let them. So it's a matter of focus, mind over matter. If they can get you to worry, be stressed, then they are doing their job. If you are happy, going about your business, they don't like that, and that is when you know that you are on the right path. So it's just a matter of getting back that focus, and keeping it.

It's possible, but it does take practice. I have my moments.

Where in the world have I been.

Where have I been? God that's such a hard question to answer. Feels like nowhere and everywhere.

I have a billion movies to update you on.

1. Harold and Kumar part
2. The Chronicles of Narnia.
3. Apocalypto.


A few others that I can't remember right now. They all have interesting things to say.
Thoughts that I want to share, such as:

1. What if East Germany really was just an experiment? Some people say that when WWII ended, all of Germany could have been taken by the allies, but that they were given orders to stand back, allowing Russia to take over a part of the country. The theory is that the East German snitch society was a planned thing, and if they could do it there successfully, they knew that they could do it with the rest of the world. Don't know, but it's a fun thought.

I find it really hard to blog, sometimes I just don't feel like. A bit of burn out setting in, plus been dealing with other things. Sometimes you are going through a bad situation, (Yeah Gang Stalking, Government targeting is a bad situation.) You are going through that, and then some people come into your life and make it 10 times more difficult, and devastating, and make the Gang Stalking look like child's play. I have been marvelling at the wonder of that.

2. I think that if I ever go away, my sites would just go offline. As some of you will remember before, my sites use to go down a lot, switched companies and everything was fine, more importantly, I have been online a lot. Recently I took some away time, and the sites were off most of that time. Sometimes I really feel like I am doing this by myself. I know I am not, but sometimes it feels like it. I just wish more Targets would do there part, and get this information out there, back it up, or whatever, but we each journey alone at times.

3. Mark M Rich is ok. I really hope he is a target, and if he is, I really, really feel for him. When I think I have it bad, I just read some of his stuff he's going through, and it makes me just want to put up with my stuff more. His most recent entry made me pretty sad.
http://thehiddenevil.com/status.asp

If he is a target, don't know why he has not written about the one handed sign language being used yet? Anyways if Mark is a real target, then he needs some prayers right now.
I am so tired. I have had a lot of my own stuff to deal with. Stuff that was not or who knows, but not Gang Stalking related that I know of, but stuff that really threw me off base, that weird stuff that I don't like to talk about, stuff weirder than Gang Stalking, if you can believe that.

4. My torture continues. Now that it's summer, the places where they burnt holes in my skin show up as faint scars, but they are there to remind of of the fun times, I have had over the last two years. (Wow two years of this bs have passed.) No wait that should say two years of my awareness of this have passed, cause this has been going on much longer, if we include the workplace mobbing, and harassment. Two years of being online, and sometimes, I wonder if I have made a difference? I wish I knew how to fix this for so many reasons.

So they have been trying to sensitise me with cameras, and I think with chicks kissing each other. I don't know, but with all that I am going through, you must be getting desperate, go back to jingling keys, at least then I could respect you. (Not really but, but I could at least pretend to respect you.) Like I said, I broke my sensitivity, and won't be acquiring any new ones. Once you are aware, you have a fighting chance.

Anyways they took up the level of frying a notch the last month or so. Unlike the army where they aim high, these creatures have been aiming low. I don't want to go into details, but let's just say it's been a shock to some lower parts of my system. Yeah.

Oh yeah the noise thing continues, if I get into a deep sleep, they will try to do something to wake me up out of it. The other day it was the fire alarm at 3:00 am to 3:30 am. Along with of course the all night room shacking, electronic frying stuff. Wonder why they would try to keep targets awake and not let them get to sleep, or electronically monitor them all day, and try to always crowd there space? Are you afraid that targets might get comfortable and dream there way out of this nightmare?

The psychological harassment continues, and even with all my private information violated and out there, they still don't seem to be able to psychologically get the control they need. Some people have no real power of their own, and so they have to try to control others, or make others look weak or inferior, maybe mental. That's not real power, but it is control. Just like others like to have power over children, and those that are young in spirit, easy to manipulate and control. The world is full of these types, no real power of their own, and so they take it out on others when they think they can, the old what can I get away with? And so these types will continue to get away with it, till someone put's them in their place.

During the day they try to leave when I do, I had a bit of fun with them the other morning, which had snitches up and down the stairs trying to find me. Oh and the other night I want on my balcony at 2:00 am in the morning, the grounds were empty at first, then within 10 minutes the snitches were let out, it was funny. There were like about 6-10, who all of a sudden needed to be outside.

During the day they have cut back on trying to hit me with the cars, for the time being. They still have to try to crowd my space, or try to bump into me, but I have that pretty well handled. I have my days. Sometimes they get a little too fresh, and then I retaliate.

I am holding down income, for the time being. I found out that some people at my last job, due to a situation that I did not want to be a part of, cost me my last job. Being a state target is not bad enough, trying to keep a job to survive is not good enough, and then I have to have parasites on top of that, coming and screwing things up for me more. Anyways leaving that Karma to balance itself out.

Sometimes I don't see this getting better. People are too base and common, not always, but how do you get to this? I mean we had the books, 1984, etc. We saw East Germany, and yet here we have it, societies where people would happily snitch out their own mothers. I just don't get it.

5. Been dipping into the reincarnation stuff again, well not just that, but a lot of stuff. Picture this. You are born, you are in some other realm, like a spirit realm. You come here to have experiences so you can gain understanding and grow. You do this several times, each time you leave the earth realm, you go back to being yourself, but maybe you also join the whole again, until you are ready to take form again. You reincarnate again as someone new, but all the memories of the past existence are in the subconscious mind. Interesting thoughts hun?
Mark on his site said he was worried about mind readers. He should be, we all should be. you know when this stuff all started and people would talk about this stuff, I use to wonder if they were being up and up, or if they were just snitches making this stuff up. Now I know that they are on the up and up. I should say on the up and up about the mind reading, cause there are people that talk about this stuff that are still not legit.

I also know that there is way more going on than a lot of us know. I do know that there is more than one realm, there is a spirit realm and this realm, and who knows, maybe plenty of others. It still brings me back to the reasons that some of us are targeted. The real reasons, might not even be anything close to what we thought.

http://targetedindividuals.com/Community/forumdisplay.php?fid=27

I mean I still think the personality profiles fit, but I always wondered why so many targets seem to have some kind of spiritual leaning.

If there is a spirit realm, I accept that it might be more messed up than this realm, but I hope that we don't have snitches there, but probably. Maybe there you can have kids, and families without all the craziness of having to watch them be tortured. Maybe.

What I do know is that we are creeping towards the one world government thing. Sometimes it feels like it's going very slowly, like a snake digesting it's food, or a frog getting boiled in water, but it's getting there, by degrees and if we don't put a halt to it, no one else will.

I don't know how to stop it right this moment, I can't even begin to think how, I just know that we have to try. People are so willing to give over their wills to this, then they don't have to think, or function, it's like letting the state seduce you, then you don't have to think or feel for a time, but by the time you wake up, you are in a really bad situation, and won't be able to come back from it.

I guess I will do what I always do under these trying times, pray, sometimes we forget the power of prayer. Sometimes when I have had the greatest breakthroughs, it's been during those times. I encourage you to do the same.

Walls

Walls.

I was just thinking of the walls that separate people. Some of them are needful, such as boundaries. These let people know what's acceptable and what is not acceptable. These walls are needed. During the course of Gang Stalking, I had to extablish a lot of these. If you don't people will walk right over you. I mean I have these creates try all sorts of unheard of stuff. Just stuff that's wrong. Boundaries were the best way to get some of those things stopped, they were needed and had to be implemented.

Some of them are stupid and artificial. Like money and social status. Who can walk free and who get's to be stalked. Who get's to be loved and who get's to be hated in this world and why.

Some are completely unneeded. Color barriers, age, race, gender, fear, trust, anger. However these are used in society all the time to keep people apart. To control many in society. Being targets of Gang Stalking many of us have seen these barriers used to try to create fear, and hatred within us. Used to manipulate and separate in society.

Others are ones that we are not even aware of. Walls that separate one realm to the next. However once you become aware, you can never become unaware again.

Someone just reminded me how us targets put up these walls. How we learn not to trust, and learn not to hold onto things. It's true in a lot of ways. It's a survival instinct. I mean over the last 2 years, people that I should have been able to trust, are some of the people that have betrayed me the most. Your instinct for survival becomes to go for the hills without looking back.

People who you thought would always be there for you, situations that you always trusted, your government, family, friends, all gone. You are betrayed by everything in your life, and you learn to view things with those shades on. It's a wall of thorn that is needed for survival. It's what's sane in a world that suddenly becomes insane.

Are all the walls that go up needed? Hard to say, each person has to judge this for themselves. I mean for some they have been able to keep those walls down, I say good for them. For me it was not the case. Does it mean that you always have to leave these wall up? Not always, but maybe.
There are some walls that targets do not want up. Eg. Targets with children, do not want to have the walls up around their children. Children are too important and the walls should always be left down where they are concerned.

If you happen to already be in a situation with someone who you love and who loves you back, who is not out to destroy your life, then try to keep the walls down. I get so many people writing in to me, to tell me that their families are being destroyed. One partner is being affected by the stalking more than the other. They are stressed and the family is about to fall apart, and I always tell them to fight for their families. It's one of the best defences you have. You might want to put up a wall to defend your family, but keep the walls down within your family. I always thing that people with families would have it better, but in some ways they don't cause they have more to loose. Yet if they can hold it together, they have more to gain.

Being single in this realms is tuff in some ways, but it's nice in others. It's a balance.
The idea as a target is find some of that balance. I think being a target you can get into a really closed off place, not a bad thing for survival. However as a person who has become aware that there is more to life than just what we see and experience with our physical beings, I am aware now that we sometimes live in 2 worlds at once. I realise that if you want to explore and have access to those worlds, you have to let yourself be open. Also I realise that by letting yourself get closed off, to the mystic, the divine, the happy, the joyful, the laughter, etc. You give these people what they want, you let them rob you of what they don't have. You let them feed off of you, and that is not a good thing.

There are a lot of things I don't want to be closed off to, but still am cause I like feeling safe, and for the longest time those walls were my protection. Trusting people does not come easy for many people, it's just one of the things that holds us in place here. As a target we learn not to trust 100 times more than that. Not each other in some cases, and not the world at large. There are still some good people in the world, but we must help light their way as much as we must light our own, no one else is going to do it for us.

So though walls are good for somethings, and they can keep a lot of bad stuff out, sometimes they are restrictive, and preventative, and they separate you from things, people, places, realities that you really do want to be in touch with. It's all about finding a balance.

Walls are just like people, some people are open and they share everything, and they have no walls up. I think that's great. I think that gives you the ability to touch base with so many things, and it's a wonderful way to be, but then other people are like me, and we are walled off, for safety, yet that also shuts things out. I realise now that both can be a bad thing, and it's good to find balance. As a target you might tend to forget this overtime, because these people tend to strip our humanity, and they often rob us of what is good and beautify within. I think we have to fight really hard not to loose sight of that.