Buring the candles at both ends
Buring the candles at both ends.
After reading Mark's post and finding that my situation was similar to his in ways that i did not like, I decided to make some drastic changes to some areas in my life that needed changing. I think those changes are going in the right direction, even though the short term outlook is not good, the long term outlook is fairly good.
I still have the same mentally underdeveloped informants in my realm. At least one in this batch, seems especially nasty, and I can't help wishing him unwell, hey that's just me. Interpret that however you like, you whiny crybaby.
Otherwise my focus is in several areas, trying to get everything done. Trying not to get sucked into the drama of others, and trying to find the best way to untangle.
From what I have read, the system in many countries is being used in horrible ways. Husbands who are sick of their wives are having them committed for no reason what so ever. Using the flimsiest of excuses. It's incredible.
The state is listing people as a danger to themselves or others on the flimsiest excuses, and as I have mentioned dozens of times, there is a conspiracy that happens within all of this, of those around the target systemically trying to destroy the persons life. For me, it's trying to divide and conquer, or keep me financially where I don't need to be. Dependency on the system is not a good thing in any capacity.
Have not had a chance to check for an update on Mark, but when you are in a situation you can see things a lot more clearly than those outside of the situation. Many people talk conspiracy, but few can actually understand what it's like or been like to have lived one.
Conspiracy is not just consisting of the state, it is consisting of friends, family, co-workers, and those around a target. The target's life is not destroyed in a bubble, it is not as first thought, the targets life is destroyed by a system, a very willing, enabling system of conspirators. Can it change? Of course it can. I have no doubt about this, but people like this system, and that is why it has not changed.
Spiritually, I am ok, but missing my happy place in spirit a bit, but not sure why? Sometimes spiritual questions can only be answered in spirit.
Am I a part of the conspiracy club? No, the answer remains the same. People are deeply stupid. I despise this system, and all that was done to me. So for me, it means not joining forces with something that I think is inheritantly evil, no matter how many times I have pointed this out on the blog, people just still do not get it.
There are many types of people in this world. Those who are victimized and they go on to do whatever they can in their power to ensure it does not happen to anyone else again. Then there are those who are victimized and do everything in their power to ensure the others are victimized in the same way or worth. A type of sick pathology. You try to help them with the one hand, and they try to drag you down with the other.
I think a lot of people that have been targeted by this system are broken in just that way, and become exactly that. I think this system likes to try to acquire people that are not a part of it, and what they can not acquire they try to destroy.
I still get the odd informant trying to gain access to my life, and they always come of pretending to be something they are not. It's funny that way. The complete lack of understanding of what a target goes through. They really just don't get it. Most think that this system is something special. I think targets understand that this system is evil. I think the way this is used is evil.
So that's my two cent's for what it's worth. Basically busy, alone in flesh, and spirit? Working towards doing what I can to get this out of my life, but to also try to make sure others are aware of what is happening with this system. Many do not yet understand what this system is, and or what it is capable of.
It means that you can not, absolutely can not trust those around you, a simple comment, question, innocent conversation, can and will be used against you. You must be wise as wolves, and innocent as doves.
("Behold, I send you out as sheep in the midst of wolves; so be shrewd as serpents and innocent as doves.) Matthew 10:16
Absolutely do not trust anyone. That sounds paranoid, but if you have lived through this system, then you understand it's reach, it's corruption, and it's capacity to destroy. Pray consistently.