I was just reflecting on when this first started. Before I knew about Gang Stalking. Like other targets I knew that something was wrong, that something was going on, and that those around me were "in on it." Unlike other targets, I never voiced any of this out loud, and never mentioned it. However when I did try to explain about some of the unusual things that were happening, and that something was going on, they would just act like nothing was happening.
What I do know is that if I had trusted those around me, and not listened to my instincts, I would be in a very different place, a very bad place. I am grateful to God that I trusted those instincts, I am grateful to God that I prayed. I knew something was going on, and at one point, I remember praying and preparing myself, and saying that no matter what it was, that I would be ready for it, and willing and able to accept it.
Well it was more horrific than I could have thought at the time. For those who followed the blog, you know I spent like the first two years, going I can't believe this is happening, or that this is real. I use to wake up everyday, and then at some point I would say that. I think it wasn't until my settling in post, that some kind of acceptance finally came to me, and remember that I thought I was ready for the truth.
But before this time, knowing that friends, family, co-workers, business associates, were involved in something, that something was going on, but not knowing what was hard. I couldn't talk to anyone about it, I could only take counsel with myself, and in prayers with God, asking for truth. Praying to understand, how those around me, and close to me could be made to go along with something that was clearly designed to destroy me.
Also remember that no one, no sane person wants to believe in conspiracies. No one wants to believe that those around you could be plotting against you. Remember that to accuse someone of something without proof is a horrible thing, and what if you are wrong? That's why for the longest time I just observed. It would be the worst thing in the world to point the finger at an innocent person without being sure, but at the same time, you don't want to be a fool and let anyone conspire against you. So that's why I often tell targets, write things down, observe overtime, the truth will come. Cause it's a hard position to be in.
So when I do observe something new, I don't always report it at first, somethings I will wait awhile, but if it's something important for targets, something that could be harmful for them, then I might break that rule, and report an observation that I have not had time to confirm, or observe further. There are some things, that you can't always put off, it's better to issue a warning for other targets, just so that they can have a heads up.
The other things is that if you report something, people tend to see it, eg. If you report someone as mentally ill, people will see mental illness that is just not there. If you report someone as a sexual pervert, people will see every little thing that person does as somehow sexually perverted. People are just interesting that way.
Those were some dark times. I mean I get now some of the process that happens. The hapless family and friends, get a letter telling them that the person could be a sexual pervert, a danger to themselves or others, involved in drugs, prostitution, pedophilia, whatever the fake accusation is. Don't get me wrong at times these accusation the odd time, might be true, but what happens with Gang Stalking, is that the target is repeatedly set up. On top of these letters, there are interviews that can happen with friends, family, co-workers. The problem is there is no way to know how leading these interviews are, or if people always thought that James was a little odd, and someone shows up asking if James could be a danger, then suddenly James is a psychopath capable of doing great harm. Where in reality James is no more dangerous than anyone else.
They create a self fulfilling prophecies, and there is no way to know how many in society have been destroyed this way by these lies. Friends and family then get the community reports, and as target we all know the lies, set up's, and rumours that go into this. Reports all over the city, linked to you, places you have never been, situations that you have never been in, lies, rumours, and set up's, but they all contribute to destroying the targets life.
It took a lot to hold onto the faith. I knew I was not crazy, I know I am not crazy, at least not in that sense of the word. I knew there was something going on, instinctively I felt it, and when I finally knew about Gang Stalking, and I listened to all the other reports, I was shocked and disgusted. I kept thinking, what is it about targets, why are our families, friends, co-workers, neighbours, willing to side against us, with whoever is doing this? Later I realised it was the state, and that this sort of thing had happened in Russia, East Germany. I understood a bit more about how a society gets corrupted. How a society comes to believe that the evil they are doing is actually something good. World War I Germany, or the Germany of 1933 comes to mind.
When these times happens, the society itself becomes sick. They naturally do not see it, but history will judge them, it's always the same, but at the time, they believe in the Righteousness of their actions, McCarthyism comes to mind. In Russia, when they sent people off to the gulags, they would have family come and sign testimony against the person, they would even get the person to believe that they were bad. If the state said that you were bad, you were. It's horrifying to look at history and to see, and understand how often this sick, collective insanity happens, but you have the witch trials, inquisitions, this is a reoccurring theme, and people should be mindful of it.
Anyways over the years, I have been able to forgive, some people have made amends for the evils they have done, but still I sit back and think, if the state came to me, and tried to get me to go along with something this sick against friends and family would I have back them? See now that I am aware, it's less likely, but before, when I was naive, and trusted the state, could they have manipulated me that way? I don't know. The one time that I do think that I saw this, and was a part of this was back in school. At school we had a guy in class that this girl accused of being a pervert, or doing something very perverted and gross. Not only did did this precious flower accuse him, but she had her little minions with her to back up her story. Now I was disgusted when I heard this, like everyone else, and for a time stayed my distance, but after a time, seeing how everyone else was treating this person, I grew disgusted by the group ostracism of this person, and decided to go against the grain. I loaned this personhomework assignments and when handing out or sharing things with the group, did not exclude this person. Naturally I became the enemy of the original accuser. Which was funny, because this girl tried to use intimidation, and tried to socially annex me for associating with the person. It did not work, but the guy did end up leaving school, and did not finish the program. Years later now, I can almost 99.99% say that I am pretty sure that what they were doing to him, is what we call Gang Stalking. I think that is the one time, that I can think of where I might have been on the wrong end of the fence, and although at first I did stay away, cause of what this original girl had disclosed, I am glad in the long run I ignored her. She would later go on to spreading fake rumours about another friend of mine, and then eventually me. In the long run, I think people figured out her true and vicious nature, but I think it was deeper than that. I think this girl aside from the others, probably had aspecific agenda, when I look back and put all the pieces into place, that is what comes through the most. Why this guy became a target, I don't know, but that is what I think he was. I also now know what they were signalling about. Back then they were always signalling to each other. I kept thinking, what are they signalling about? Now that I know about the one handed sign language that the citizen informants use, I can look at the past, and get a pretty good idea of what was happening, and based on the type of people this girl targeted get a pretty good idea of what was likely really happening.
I included this, because I think it's important for people to try to understand the other side of the picture. I am most definitely not a bad person, I was at the time trying to support this girl at first, by staying away from someone she and her friends had said had done something perverted and gross. To the guy in this story, I can't imagine what it was like showing up to that course, to have everyone thinking this about you, and I think this explains why he missed so much time, and eventually quit. At the time however I would only have seen my part, but again I am glad that eventually my part was the role of being helpful, and not sticking to what the group was doing. The ones sticking to what the group was doing, were they trying to do anything evil? No, I can honestly say, they just felt they were getting rid of someone perverted from their midst's, and that is how this can work. They only see their part of it, which is small and insignificant, the paper cuts that on their own do not matter, but collectively, can and do destroy.
So reflections have been very important. Observation, and trusting instincts. The other thing about not reporting incidents too soon is that it's easy to send out information, but it's hard to collect that information back. Also once people get something into their heads it's hard to correct that information, so that's why most times if I can, I try to hold off on reporting things till I can be sure. Recently I skipped this step in reporting an observation, that I can not confirm, or deny. But it was more important for the protection of targets that they be aware that this could be happening in their areas, and to take precaution. I had to weight two options, and hope that the right choice was made, and that if the observation is real, that it will prove itself in time, and if not, then it will clear itself in time. What I should say is that I know that in other cases, this observation is true and happening, in the case I observed recently, I do not have concrete proof one way or another, and leave it in the realm of this is what I thought I observed on one occasion, which would never hold up for me personally in any scientific regard.
Observation should happen over a period of time, and be consistent. Like when I was observing the hand signals, that they use. So I am going to leave it at that. Sometimes you have to trust your instincts, and just go with that. Other times if you can, it's always better to find concrete proof if you can, and in all cases, try not to jump the gun, take time, and hope that truth will come.