Becoming

Becoming

http://www.twiztv.com/scripts/buffy/season2/buffy-222.htm

[quote]Cut to the atrium. Angelus plays with his sword, idly pointing it at Buffy. She looks up at him, frightened.

Angelus: Now that's everything, huh? No weapons... No friends... No hope.

Buffy closes her eyes and steels herself for whatever's coming.

Angelus: Take all that away... and what's left?

He draws the sword back and thrusts it directly at her face. With lightning-fast reflexes she swings up with both arms and catches the blade between the palms of her hands. She opens her eyes and meets his.

Buffy: Me.

She shoves the blade away from her, and the hilt of the sword hits Angelus in the face. He staggers back, and she hops to her feet and kicks him in the chest. He stumbles back even more, and she reaches down and picks up her sword. She swings it around and thrusts at him, but he
manages to parry. They exchange several blows, blocking each other.

Buffy spins around and swings her sword down at him from above. He holds up his own to block, but she hits it hard and he falls to one knee. She swings again, and he blocks. She spins around with a roundhouse kick to
his side, and he collapses to the ground.[/quote]




I don't know how many people caught the show when it was on the air, but this was a really good series. I was pretty hooked on it at the time, and season 2 episode 2 becoming is one of the best.

I can still watch it and it's still as good as it was then.

For those who didn't watch the series or thought it was kind of light here is the run down.

The series was Buffy The Vampire Slayer, it was about this girl, who sort of discovers that she is a bit unique and her mission is to save the world by slaying vampires.



[quote]“Into every generation a Slayer is born. One girl in all the world, a Chosen One. One born with the strength and skill to fight the vampires, to stop the spread of their evil and the swell of their numbers.”[/quote]

I know it seems kind of cheesy on the outset, but this show spawned one of the most intelligent communities on the web at the time. No matter where I am, I still come across people from that community. I think about 3 people wrote there PHD's on the topic of this show, just to give you an idea.

I digress, season 2, the Buffy Angel romance, or not so much romance, but the relationship that almost destroyed the slayer and ruined her life.

I am going to summarize part two, so bear with me.

Buffy Slayer falls for Vampire with a soul. Vampire falls for slayer and they finally come together at some point in season two, and the romance get's serious. Angel has a moment of true happiness, with Buffy where his soul is content and at peace, this causes some gypsy curse to kick in, and he becomes Angelus, this evil vampire without a soul.

Anyways, he spends the rest of season two, killing her friends, psychologically terrorising her, and literally trying to destroy her. She spends the rest of the season coming to grips with the fact that he is not the person she once loved, and in fact his new mission is to destroy her.

We watch the slayer mature and come to terms with this, and then the final episode, we have the clip above. Most times he was able to use psychological manipulation and it worked to distract her from what she was able to do, by playing on her fears and weaknesses, the Angelus character once again attempts to do this, but instead of falling apart, this time Buffy comes back with me.

[quote]Angelus: Now that's everything, huh? No weapons... No friends... No hope.

Buffy closes her eyes and steels herself for whatever's coming.

Angelus: Take all that away... and what's left?

He draws the sword back and thrusts it directly at her face. With lightning-fast reflexes she swings up with both arms and catches the blade between the palms of her hands. She opens her eyes and meets his.

Buffy: Me.[/quote]

See sometimes in life this is where you are, specifically with Gang Stalking, this is where they want you to be, so that you can slip and fall, and become a snitch, or kill yourself, or end of in jail or a mental ward, and what you have to remember as things around you are falling apart, people are betraying you, and at every turn someone tries to destroy you, what have you got left? Me.

If you can remember this, and draw on some kind of reserve when that time comes, you might just be ok. More importantly, you might just find a way to get through. That is what we have to hold on to, and we know that in any realm, that is what these people do. They use things and people that you trust and turn them against you, and use them to help destroy you, it's something to be aware of and come to grips with, and like the character Buffy, you have to mature and come to realise that people you once loved, and cared about, might not have your best interest at heart.

Now hopefully unlike Buffy, you won't have to put a sword through your vampire lover and send him or (her) to hell, but if it comes to it, then do what you have to do. (I don't literally mean that you will have to put swords, what I do mean, is you might have to psychologically shore yourself up, so that you don't let things and people bring you down.


Ok I am going to leave you with the final scene for that episode. It's bitter sweet, but such is life. The point is, you can triumph and overcome difficult situations, but it's not easy, but do your best, and remember you always have you even if you feel like you have no one else.


[quote]Willow: Asa sa fie! Asa sa fie! Acum!

Translation: So it shall be! So it shall be! Now!

Cut to the mansion. Angelus has dropped his sword and holds his cut.
Buffy does a high kick to his face, and he falls backward into Acathla
and lands on his knees before her.

Cut to the hospital.

Willow: Acum!

Translation: Now!

The Orb glows brightly for a brief moment and goes dark. Willow suddenly
relaxes, and looks around blankly.

Cut to the mansion. Buffy raises her sword to dispatch Angelus, but
stays herself when he suddenly gasps loudly and groans in pain. She sees
his eyes glow bright red for an instant and go back dark. He looks up at
her, but quickly collapses to the floor, crying. Buffy stares down at
him, but still holds her sword raised behind her. Angel raises himself
back up, his eyes heavy with tears, and looks into her eyes.

Angel: (softly) Buffy? (sobs) What's going on?

She just looks at him, confused but not yet ready to lower the sword. He
looks around a bit and gets to his feet.

Angel: Where are we? I-I don't remember.

Finally Buffy realizes that the curse has worked, and she slowly lowers
her sword.

Buffy: (softly) Angel?

Angel: (sees her wound) You're hurt.

She looks down at her wound and feels his gentle touch on her arm. She
ignores her cut, looks back up at him and steps closer. He embraces her
tightly.

Angel: Oh, Buffy... God.

She still isn't completely sure that it's true, but accepts the hug.

Angel: I... I feel like I haven't seen you in months.

Finally she accepts it, closes her eyes and breathes out a deep sigh.

Angel: Oh, my God, everything's so muddled. I...

He holds her even more closely.

Angel: Oh...

He sighs deeply and kisses her on the shoulder.

Angel: Oh, Buffy...

She cries into his shoulder and hugs him back. Behind him Acathla lets
out a low rumble. Buffy opens her eyes and stares in shock as Acathla's
face contorts. His brows angle down, his eyes glow red, his mouth opens
grotesquely and the swirling vortex to Hell opens, small at first, but
growing steadily in size and emanating a deep, red glow. Buffy lets go
of Angel and looks up into his face.

Angel: (confused) What's happening?

Buffy: (whispers reassuringly) Shh. Don't worry about it.

She brushes her fingers over his lips and across his cheek. She lays her
hand on his cheek and kisses him softly. He returns the kiss, and it
becomes more passionate. Behind them the vortex has grown to about five
feet (1.5 m) across and continues to get larger. Buffy breaks off the
kiss and looks deeply into Angel's eyes.

Buffy: (whispers) I love you.

Angel: (whispers) I love you.

She touches his lips with her fingers again.

Buffy: Close your eyes.

She nods reassuringly, and he closes his eyes. She tries hard not to
start crying, and kisses him again gently. She steps back, draws back
her sword and thrusts it into his chest. His eyes whip open in surprise
and pain, and a bright light emanates from the sword. She steps away
from him. He reaches out to her and looks down at the sword thrust
completely through him. He looks at her imploringly, completely
bewildered by this turn of events. She can only stare at the sword
protruding from his chest, and slowly steps further back.

Angel: Buffy...

Behind him the power of the sword begins to swirl into the vortex. Buffy
steps further back, still looking only at the sword in his chest and not
into his face. The vortex has enlarged to about twelve feet (3.5 m)
across, and the two energies begin to interact. Angel still holds out
his hand to Buffy. When the vortex finally meets him it suddenly closes
into Acathla's mouth without so much as a spark, taking him with it.
Buffy stares at the stone demon for a long moment, a light of awareness
dawning in her eyes as she truly realizes what she has done, what she
has lost. She begins to sob, her heart breaking. In the background "Full
of Grace", by Sarah McLachlan, begins to play over the scene.

Lyrics: The winter here is cold...

Dissolve to Buffy's street. She walks across it toward her house.

Lyrics: ...and bitter / It's chilled us to the bone / We haven't seen
the sun for weeks / Too long, too far from home

She looks at the neighboring houses, then back at hers. Cut into the
house. Joyce climbs the steps and looks down the hall at Buffy's door.

Lyrics: I feel just like I'm sinking

Joyce: Buffy?

Lyrics: And I claw for solid ground

She walks to Buffy's room and looks in. The windows are open, and some
of her daughter's things are strewn on the bed. She steps in and looks
around.

Lyrics: I'm pulled down by the undertow

She sees a note on the bed among a bunch of clothes.

Lyrics: I never thought I could feel so low

She picks up the note and reads.

Lyrics: And, oh, darkness / I feel like letting go

She begins to cry as she reads and sits down on the bed.

Lyrics: If all of the strength and all of the courage / Come and lift
me from this place
[/quote]


Oh and yeah, I can still watch this show and be on the edge of my seat on some of those scenes, this show crossed gender and cultural barriers, and it's still as relevant today in many ways as it was then, special thanks to Joss Whedon for creating such a unique and memorable show, universe, and for an amazing and unique community the likes I have not yet come across again.

http://www.wat.tv/video/sarah-mclachlan-full-of-grace-10qab_wszu_.html

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L_IjUn2zw0c

Double suicide. Sounds like gang stalking

Calanderlive


This artice was brought to my attention. It's regarding the double suicde of two people. The thing that's interesting about their suicide is that it sounds like gang stalking.

Here are some choice clips.

[quote]It's been just eight days since rising art star Jeremy Blake was seen wandering into the ocean off New York's Rockaway Beach -- presumably to his death -- a week after he discovered that his blogger-filmmaker girlfriend, Theresa Duncan, had taken her life in their East Village apartment.

But the apparent double suicide of this glamorous, intellectual couple has confounded and disturbed the art world in New York, London and Los Angeles, where they lived together for several years. Many were shocked by the turn of events while others noted that the couple had acted strangely in their final months together.

[b]According to several friends and art world peers, the two believed they were being stalked and harassed by Scientologists, an abiding fear that soured old friendships and made some of their respective working relationships difficult.[/b] [/quote]



They thought they were being stalked by scientologists. Other targets think it's just Masons, others think it's religious groups, others think it's skin heads, others think it's gangs. It's societal, and it's happening to more people than I ever dared to dream or imagine, most times it never hit's the papers. The only time you get hints of this are in the case of people like Kilmeer Gill the Montreal shooter, if they left a blog, other wise you usually don't get this info published. This is usually never published because it's systemic, and it's being used to control certain people, the reason we are even hearing about this more is because we have the Internet. It's been happening for how long in society? We just never realized.


[quote]Christine Nichols, a colleague and friend of Blake's since 1998, produced two art exhibitions, two books and a record in conjunction with the artist through the New York art gallery she co-founded, Works on Paper Inc. Nichols dates the couple's rising sense of "paranoia" to around 2004, two years after Blake created an album cover for alternative-rock star Beck, who is a practicing Scientologist.

"They thought Scientologists were really harassing them," Nichols said. "They would say, 'They are following us, harassing our landlord.' I did not see any evidence of that.[/quote]

No body ever sees evidence of that. So the targets come off looking all paranoid. The same thing that I have talked about for the last year. The landlord being harassed, they are lucky that they even found that much out. Most targets never do. See in their case in was scientologists, I have had gay men tell me it's religious groups, and I have had others tell me it's skin heads, others tell me it's Masons.

[quote]"But it got to be something that was huge to them -- a 'You're either with us or against us' thing where if you didn't believe them, you weren't on their side. The story they had woven in paranoia and conspiracies took over part of their lives. A lot of us couldn't understand that acting out."[/quote]


This is the sad part, it forces the targets into this sense of isolation. You don't want to be isolated, but when you are coming up against something so weird and all encompassing this is usually the safest path and most targets will choose this path. I have heard of other couples targeted this way. I always thought it would be easier if there were two targets instead of one, but I have not seen any evidence of that. Being stalked and targeted is being stalked and targeted, single or together.


[quote]Duncan and Blake, who were together for 12 years, are recalled as an impossibly good-looking, intellectually vigorous and socially popular pair of soul mates who moved gracefully among a set of likewise brainy, moneyed people who occupy the intersection of art and technology on both coasts.

According to Lance Kinz, director of Kinz, Tillou and Feigen gallery in New York, which shows Blake's digital paintings and films, Duncan's suicide and Blake's disappearance have confounded many people.

"They were both highly ambitious and successful and had achieved a lot. They were energetic in their creative pursuits," Kinz said. "The biggest surprise is that Jeremy would sacrifice what he had worked so hard to achieve and had been so excited about.[/quote]


Sounds like they probably fit the target profile very well. However until I can find out more I don't want to judge it too much.

Then there is the question of her suicide. If they really were targets, was her death really a suicide? How about his?

There are so many weird variables when it comes to gang stalking and so many questions that you have to ask yourself.

I do know this for sure however, if they were targets, and they did die, then we failed, just a little bit. As targets of this harassment, our jobs should be getting the word out, blogging, posting on forums, and just making as many people aware of this as possible.

It's possible that if they were targets of this, that they had no idea about gang stalking or the rest of this. I am ever increasingly surprised at how isolated targets can become when it comes to this stuff.

I do believe if you are a target of this societal form of control, that it's your job to make none targets, and unaware targets aware of what is going on. The poor me thing only goes so far, remember if you are aware of this stuff, then you are luckier than most targets, and you know that you are not alone.

I just found out about it, so I have not had a chance to research it or find out more, but before the article is removed from cyber space, I thought it would be best to post and blog about it. (I am not joking, the washington post link has already been removed, renamed, not found, whatever.)

Washington Post

I would say more, but I am going to keep this posting really short.