Exhausted.

This post goes out to any other weary traveller that has been exhausted on their path. May you find the most peaceful slumber. :-)

I woke up this morning and I was really exhausted. Not just because of the electronic harassment on going and the fact that I have been forgetting to shield properly, but because of other things.

Other unanswered questions, not really, I realise the answers and solutions will come when you are ready and you let yourself be open to them.

Ok this post is mostly not gang stalking related, so feel free to tune out.

I have been thinking a lot about reincarnation, not because I am wondering about it anymore, but because I am sure that we do reincarnate. Time and time again we take shape and form, to have human experiences. We form bonds, love, hate, and we tend to reincarnate and be attached and attracted to those we have formed the strongest bonds to. That's the truth, it's weird, but it's the truth. It's a truth that I knew on some elemental level, but always refused to believe or fully accept until recently.

For any Trekkie's out there, think Dax, and how the host inherits the memories of the previous host. Except with humans we thankfully don't often remember what is behind the veil. That is often closed from one lifetime to the next for good reason. Makes sense, I mean you would remember people, places, pain, love, and you could do very little about it, because you are a different entity and must start anew, no going through on the good Karma of your last incarnation. Well that's not fully true. Even if we don't openly remember, we have feelings of, or a sense of it. It's all really interesting stuff.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rejoined
http://youtube.com/watch?v=_fasAZI8sYI&feature=related

I also accept that we can have pretty real spiritual experiences in human form. Some which we remember, many that we won't. I accept that the spirit realm might be as messed up, or more messed up than this place.

I also accept that really rational logic people can find themselves in strange circumstances where they don't know what to do. along with the whole Gang Stalking thing, I have for the last several months, found myself in a circumstance which for many would seem even more strange than Gang Stalking, except for me, nothing has topped finding out that the world is a creepy government experiment, with snitches at just about every corner. Otherwise this experience would normally top it, and for many others I am sure it does.

Anyways along with that strange path came a lot of weird baggage. I found myself in yet another game I did not want to be a part of, and every time I thought I had finally yanked myself out of the game, I was right back in and sinking deeper and deeper. I wanted out, but just kept getting pulled back in. I realised that the only way to win the game some months back, was just to leave it and lose. Sometimes when you lose you win, and sometimes you win, you really lose. Anyways with and often without my consent or willingness to participate the game continued.

The majority of the players knowing way more about what was ongoing with the game than I did. What else is new. One more area of my life that I suddenly was not in control of, not in charge of, and I hated it, but could not pull myself out.

During that time, I am trying to find the answers to the universe, what to do about the Gang Stalking, and the fact that the world is pretty much enslaved already, the fact that their is a whole entire spirit world that we can tap into if we really want to, mostly if we are at our happiest. So in the midst of the usual junk, I had more weirdness to contend with.

I often think it's bad enough that the government can get inside our private spaces, imagine when they get inside your head and can hear your thoughts, know your dreams better then you, and what is going in your inner realm better than you do? Creepy? Yes, I am just glad that even if they can read minds, they can't read hearts.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=8ErTP6a2Kik

Anyways back to the irritating game. It was like playing with an immature preschooler, who can't make up it's mind. Except really what was happening was dealing with an entity that wanted to see how long the game could be played. Back and forth the ball would spin, all the while promising a winner for the game, and really the only winner was the spinner.

Still a fun trip, one that was better not taken. A path that was better left unmapped and uncharted. It hurt a few innocents in it's wake, that's what I am most sad about. That's the part of this path that I hated. My mandate is to not do harm to others, but every time I got sucked back into this path, it would invariably hurt others, people that I actually had concern for. It was a really bad path to be on. One that I should never have been on, or stayed on as long as I did. Yet it gave me insight into a realm that I would not have had insight into otherwise. A realm that I want to know more about.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=exVMdxJ8H7w

Anyways last week I took the advise that I had given myself months ago, and finally got off the path. It's a game that is never ending, the rules are always the same. Nothing ever changes. Keep the target off balance. In a state of anxiety. Never let them know what is really going on. Be the one in control. After Gang Stalking, this was just another version of the same thing.

Anyways I hope I can stay sober and off the path. (Sober being an expression only.) So that's my big share moment. Anyways when a path leaves you exhausted, weary, tired, etc. Sometimes as much as we hate it, and might want to hang on, you just have to exhale. Speaking of which, I want to say congrats to Whitney Houston on making a come back. I read that after years of being away she is recording again. Good for Whitney, sometimes things and people pull you off your path, and sometimes circumstances get you back to where you need to be. I am told that destiny is not a matter of chance, it's a matter of choice.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=RuWyIKdxSzU

I want out.

Ever wonder if the Governments of the world are full of Passive Aggressive Manipulators? Now as many of you can remember I started blogging about these about 7 months ago. I thought I had identified one at my old job, that had set it's sights on me.

I was thinking about the Government and I wonder how many attributes they have in common with P.A.M.'s?They are big on being in control. They don't seem like it, but they are some of the most controlling people on the face of the planet, as well as manipulative. They also like to have all the power in a relationship, be it friendship or other. Now don't get me wrong they can be very nice people, people you want to be friends with, as long as you are not the one being manipulated by them, then it's another story.

It's the same with the government. I trusted my government. Thought they were nice, and so they are if you are not the one being Gang Stalked by them, then it's another story. They also like to be in control, they are manipulative and they also like to have the power in a relationship, as targets well know.

They love games, passive, aggressive, manipulative games. They like to hide in the shadow, behind a mask of sincerity, and harmlessness. The harmless geek type, wouldn't hurt a fly. Have you seen some of the people in government?

They like to play games that will psychologically over time weaken their targets. If they can find a hook, a way to dig into the target they will do it. Eg. Attack a persons weight, make them feel insufficient, unworthy, do little things to break them down, while all the time making the target seem like they have the problem, or that they are the ones who are causing the harm in the friendship, relationship. When called on the bullshit, they feign being hurt, or attacked, knowing full well what they are doing. They are good at dropping tears at the drop of a bucket.

Remember Gang Stalking is very similar, the government plays a psychological/Social game with the targets life that is set to destroy them, or at least severely limit their capacity. They do it over time, and if the target lashes out justifiably, they make it seem like it's the targets fault.
Also trying to get away from a passive aggressive manipulator is almost as hard as getting away from Gang Stalking. I have known people to leave the country to get away from one of these people. With Gang Stalking targets are hardly ever that lucky.

Passive Aggressive Manipulators are hard to spot and hard to identify, even if you do identify one, most people would not believe you. The same is true for Gang Stalking, even when you try to tell them that the government is crazy and stalking you, via snitches, most people don't believe. Also with both scenarios, if you do nothing to correct the situation it just get's worst and worst and you just get sucked further down.

http://www.mentalabuse.org/tech2.asp
http://www.mentalabuse.org/respond.asp

[quote]They're not that hard to deal with. You can ignore them (hey, works for most) or just say things like;"I hear what you're saying and I fully understand what you're asking for. However even if I wanted to do this I haven't got the authority to do it, so I'll have to get someone else."However the customer won't want to hear this because they know that the next person will see right through them and veto their demands. They're hoping that the first point of contact is a clueless pusher of pencils. If the first point of contact makes a mistake and gives them something they're not entitled to then the customer has won. Handball this type as soon as it becomes feasible to do so, but make sure you give a very detailed account of any conversation that you've had with them because this type of customer will most certainly lie to the next person and say things such as; "The person I was speaking to said that you'd be able to do this." This is despite the fact that you've said no such thing. [b]The passive/ aggressive manipulator lives in their own plane of reality and everyone is lying but themselves. Remember that and you'll soon be able to spot them and easily deal with anything they have to offer. [/b]
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Just like P.A.M.'s, they will say it is black, when you have said it is white, and the clueless people around them will just go along with it. The same is true with the government, once they list you as insane, a pedophile, drug dealer, whatever lie they use to get you stalked and mobbed 24/7, they will not give up, and unless you learn to use your voice and express yourself as a target, your side of the story will never get heard. It will be a one sided conversation, where you never get to voice or express what you are feeling.

Passive aggressive manipulators, seem really warm and caring, but they can also be downright cold and feeling less. They can also be ruthless and dangerous, just like the government. If you think you are dealing with one, handle with caution, if you know you are dealing with one, well handle with even more caution.

Doing nothing does not work, getting angry does not work, you have to find someway to express to the world how you feel about the situation without coming off as the aggressor, dealing with manipulators and Gang Stalking is the same. Also manipulators in some cases can be as bad as the government. Because they are controlling, in some cases they like to know your actions 24/7. If the government could get inside the heads of targets they would.

How to deal with them. Discontinue association. Stop talking to them and interact with them as little as possible the moment you know that you are dealing with one. However if you really are dealing with one, you might have to eventually go public about ending the friendship or association and even then that will often just spur on the P.A.M. The same is true for the government. The moment they know that we are trying to get away from the Gang Stalking, they try to turn it up a notch, they like to think that they have you in a death grip and will not let go. Sometimes I wish we could Gang Stalk them.

Anyways I was wondering if writing a public I want out letter to the stalkers would help. It would go something like this.

I want out. I never wanted to be a Gang Stalking target. This is not ok with me, it never has been, and it never will be. I have been saying I want out for the last two years, you have just not been listening or we have a failure to communicate. Either way. I find Gang Stalking to be psychologically, emotionally abusive, and degrading. I don't want to play this game anymore, I never did. I want my name out of this mess, I want my files removed and my name cleared. Stop spreading lies about me and the other targets. It's nothing personal, but some people like the attention 24/7 and I personally don't. I want my privacy back. I want the electronic/torture harassment to stop. I realise as long as I live in your country, that might not be possible, since there are just some ties that bind that can not be easily broken, but I still want out.

I want to live in peace and quite, i want to stop being psychologically degraded, manipulated, and I don't appreciate the control. I do realise that my fellow sheeple for the most part are ok with this, and some even like the game, however I don't. I don't like the jobs that I have lost due to this garbage, or the reputation that has been ruined due to this, and I want it to stop. Simply put I want out.

In the future should I get bored and decide I again want to be psychologically manipulated, controlled, etc, I will let ya know. Yours sincerely, Citizen Gang Stalking.

Do I really think that would work? No, but it might be fun to do. All we can do is realise that silence kills, but also over reacting does us no good. These people are looking to push our buttons, they are playing games that we never asked to play. They will hold on to and control us as long as we let them. We must do what we can to remove them from our realm, that means on a physical level, but also on a psychological level and that can take time. Remember the name of the game is to ruin the targets reputation, put them into stressful situations, make them seem like they are the ones with the problem. Never let them get their side of the story out, and keep the rumour mill going. While seeming like the friendly benevolent government that would never do their citizens any harm right? That's why I think governments are really passive aggressive manipulators at heart, and all we can do is work at getting out on every level that we can.

They do not have our best interests at heart, they are out to make sure that targets are degraded in every way possible, and it's up to us to find a way out. We have to realise they will play these games for as long as we let them. Our best methods of defence are again exposure and awareness. Will it stop the Gang Stalking, probably not, but it can make it less severe. When you don't have a voice and others are doing the talking for you you have no chance for survival.

Tis the season to be Targeted.

Tis the season to be Targeted.

Ok let's go over some of the holiday cheer that we can all expect this holiday season.
*Electronic harassment anyone? Let's gather around the Christmas tree, pull up a nice glass of eggnog and get ready to be fried remotely.

Ok maybe not. Seriously I have been thinking about this a lot. I am really tired of the days that I forget to try and sheild. I was fried a lot last night and it just makes me wonder how much damage is getting done remotely? I try not to think about it too much, cause not too much I can do except to sheild better. I have heard of physical damage over time that other targets have experienced and I really really wonder what's happening on the inside. (It's been about a year and six months now, since my e-harassment started.)

*Mobbing. Ok still dealing with the workplace stuff. I am down to primarily gossip and slander, and the sheeple freaking themselves out when they think I am going to go ape about a new bit of gossip or slander. (See I could care less about gossip and slander, but I know you can't ignore it. If you will remember, some false gossip that stated about many years ago that I was not aware of initially, just kept going and going and has followed me consistantaly. Causing many problems and unnessacary harassment.)

I am convinced that the sheeple really belong together. I really feel sorry for the people in this world that are not like them. The chances of meeting someone, mating and being happy are almost none existant. I think a lot of real targets come to this realisation, and have to make real choices about how they are going to live their lives. (Damned if you do, damned if you don't.) Even none targets who see the system for what it is have to come to a choice, about how they are going to live their lives.

As far as the workplace stuff is concerned, my main concern now is dealing with a P.A.M. at work. That's a Passive-Aggressive Manipulator. They lie a lot and are considered dangerous. P.A.M.'s can litterally lie so convincingly that they convience others of reality. As one person put it, they could come along and say that the blue sky is pink, and people would believe them. I don't know if this just makes people stupid, or P.A.M's really good liers, and I don't care.
P.A.M.'a are about power and control, and they are likely to become dangerous when their lies and manipulations are exposed. I have encountered P.A.M.'s before, but never at close range, and never focused on me. It's a good learning experience.

Here is an example of a P.A.M. The target will say something like. I don't use drugs. The P.A.M. will invent some tail about the target using, snorting, shooting drugs. Then everyone will isolate the target, or mistreat, or just further slander the target in the same way. The target may or may not know what is being said, and has very limited ways to defend themselves. I will give you some links later for P.A.M.'s.

http://www.cassiopaea.com/cassiopaea/emotional_manipulation.htm
http://www.mentalabuse.org/home.asp

The problem with this is ofcouse in a workplace environment is that people move around change jobs, and they carry the lies to other places, and before you know it you are a druggy, and only God could clear you name. These people are stupid and dangerous. The above is an example only and does not exactly reflect my own situation or specific slander.

*GangStalking. Well I am still being followed around the city by the snitches. They really give me reasons to believe that humanity is just lost. I really don't have hope for humanity, and I do think that humans are that stupid, immoral and hopeless. Not all, just most.

I long for moments to be alone and just meditate, pray, whatever. I can remember a lifetime of silent moments before this happened, I so took them for granted. This is so violating, mentally, spiritaully, emotionally, and even to a physical degree, cause they do try to get up in your physical space.

The sheep really are crazy and stupid and they will believe anything. It's like that example that happened in that aritlce.

http://www.iht.com/articles/2006/08/14/news/korea.php

[quote]SEOUL: Kim Myong Jae's estranged girlfriend was found dead in her room in Seoul on April 22 last year, six days after she poisoned herself.

Two weeks later, Kim, a 30-year-old accountant, found that he had been transformed into the No. 1 hate figure of South Korea's Internet community, a victim of a growing problem in a country that boasts the world's highest rate of broadband use.

First, death threats and vicious text messages flooded his cellphone. Meanwhile, spreading fast through blogs and Web portals were rumors that Kim had jilted his girlfriend after forcing her to abort his baby, that he had assaulted her and her mother, and that his abuse had finally driven her to suicide.

"By the time I found out the source of this outrage, it was too late. My name, address, photographs, telephone numbers were all over the Internet," Kim said. "Tens of thousands of people were busy sharing my identity and discussing how to punish me. My name was the most-searched phrase at portals." News reports and portals confirmed that his name was at the top of such lists.

The allegations against Kim were first posted on his former girlfriend's home page after her death and quickly spread in various versions. Kim vehemently denies the allegations, and the police later said they could not substantiate them.

Web users took the matter into their own hands.They bombarded Kim's employer, the food and beverage company Doosan, with so many calls demanding that it fire Kim or face a boycott that Kim quit. Anonymous hate mail swamped the Web site of Kookmin University, where Kim attended evening classes, forcing him to drop out.

"I couldn't believe what was happening to me was real," he said. "My family had to move to a new house. I was afraid to dine out or use public transportation. I had to live like a fugitive."[/quote]

http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/programmes/click_online/6112754.stm
(More about cyber violence.)

This is what this generation of immoral, stupid, conscienceless, cretains, are capable of. The snitches are capable of this and in the case of gangstalking so much more. Since gangstalking is government sanctioned, we have these psycho vigilantees (our fellow citizens.) feeling justified in the things that they do, be it frying our kids in their sleep, killing our pets, ruining our lives, and killing us. We have the ungodly, siting in judgement of the rightous. (Well you know what I mean.)

What I was also thinking about was revolution. I was wondering if you could use the stupidity and ignorance fo these people against them. After weeks of up close and personal exposure to these creatures, I am wondering if you could use their stupidity against them to faciliate a revolution or to enhance one?

From what I have seen they would believe the gossip mill over their own eyes, ears. Whatever you tell them, they will believe. Could you feed them a big enough lie to get them to implode on themselves? (Spread enough disinfo through the system to cause a calapse?)

I am not really sure about how info gets feed into their system. I mean cellphones, blackberry's, yeah, but each area is suppose to be like their own central command unit right? So is there a way to get the false info out to each unit simultaniously? A big enough lie to corrupt and unman the system? Just thinking.

I am also this time of the year thinking about betrayl and the people who knew for years and did nothing, and who almost let me get destroyed. I can't forgive, and I can't forget, but I have become more mellow in the preceeding months. It's who they are, it's what they are. Targets do not usually have the most moral or upstanding friends or family. I have let a lot of the anger go, but this time of the year, reminds me of being fried in my home last year. All the ugly truth that I have discover over the last year, and more that is probably still to come.

I now ofcourse know that Governments do horrendous things, mine is no better.
Citizens are actively and routinely tortured by the state in democratic countries.
Democracy is not really freedom, and we are no better than slaves in a controlled society.
Snitches, snitches and more snitches. Every in my society just about is a snitch. Even targets can be snitches. (I still not clear on this one fully.)

There are so many evils that happen in the world, that we will never know about.
Speaking the truth can get you assassinated, or targeted. (I sort of knew that. I just had no idea to what extent.)

This system is in place because to some degree it works for many people wither they admit it or not. (Opinion, but I think there is some fact basis to it.) I see people and the almost addiction to being connected, to being in tune with this system. This belonging that they trade their souls for. They like it in some ways.

People are lasy, they are happy to let others do the dirty work, and they don't mind taking the credit for it.

The world loves it's own kind. If you are a target, it's likely that you were not the worlds kind.
There is so much more, but I don't see things changing anytime soon. Not because I don't believe change is possible, I just don't believe change in humanity is possible. People have been the same since the begining, and when you do think things have changed for the better, that's when they often take a giant leap back in time. Laws won't change things unless people change things.