Lothlorien I will find you again

To my safe place which provided comfort and safety to my spirit. I found you at a time when my spirit needed rest, security and safety. Though I did not know it at the time, you were a resting place that I would come to adore. A vital element, that changed everything for the better, just when my spirit was running low.

You provided safety, security, kept the dark forces at bay, for a time, as best as you could. But Lothlorien, is not meant to be a fortress, it is meant to be a place to restore, replenish, renew, and you have done that and so much more. To stay on these shores, is to leave this fairy place open to the dark forces that roam.

Lothorien is a safe haven, that I grew to love well. My spirit found peace. My resources in spirit were renewed. I was protected and safe. I have no desire to leave. I would stay and lazy about if I could. In spirit it's is such a lovely place to abide in.



Yet I seek it's equal out in flesh, and such a place is not available, such a place is only available in spirit. To know of such a place is spirit, yet to not be able to find it's rest in flesh is bittersweet.



I am off to find my fortress. I am off to find a Minas Tirith of my own. I seek a fortress of my own, which is accessible in spirit and flesh. A fortress to keep the dark forces at bay. A permanent place of rest. But my eyes can not look away from Lothorian, my mind lingers at it's gates. My feet stay bound to it's shores. I think my beautiful place, i will find you again. Maybe next time, this safe haven will be accessible from all planes.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OQljFLpbPPQ

The other side

Since it’s the weekend, and I have have done my Gang Stalking post, I thought I would talk about something else. Spiritual Consciousness. The bigger picture. In the course of Gang Stalking, I have given a bit of thought to the bigger picture. I have always had spiritual beliefs, but in the last couple of years, some have become more firm.

http://www.email-a-psychic.co.uk/Psychics%20Astral%20Plane.htm

Astral Plane

What is it?

[quote]Many cultures have references to the astral plane some examples of these are the Dreaming of the Australian Aborigines, the Spirit-world of Shamanism, the Duart of the ancient Egyptians, the Bardo of the Tibetans.

The Astral plain is a plane of existence and perception paralleling the physical plane. It can be accessed during our sleeping hours during out-of-body experiences, It is then when our spirit can travel into other dimensions where we can perceive the beings of that world. This is the area where psychics make contact with their spirit guides, and see things yet to happen in the future. Unlike the material world, which is made up of atoms and molecules, the astral plane is a world of thoughts. Because of this it is not three-dimensional, it is an area that is all around and all encompassing. Objects can be viewed from all directions at the same time and emotions become visible and tangible, as are material objects on the earth plain.[/quote]

So apparently it’s a plane of existence similar to our own. It can be accessed in dreams, via lucid dreaming, and a few other ways.

Does it actually exist though?

Many people believe that it does, and I have come to agree with this sentiment, over the last couple of years, based on research, and other things.

So this is apparently a place some can visit at will, and that we all visit in dreams. Interesting. How many remember their dreams? How many feel in control in their dreams? How many feel they can control their dreams? Not too many I would imagine.

I see dead people

For the psychics and travels who visit this plane, they can see, hear and interact with what we call dead people. These are beings that have left this plane of existence and moved on to the next. From the feedback of these people who have had this experience, they say we do continue on, and we continue on in some ways similar to this plane of existence, while there.

Different colors of people

The astral realm, much like the earth realm can have different shades of people. When I was younger I thought we might all become invisible and colorless after death. But we have an astral body, very similar to our current bodies, without many of the limitations. It can see in various directions at once, and apparently a whack of other interesting things, from what I have read, and now believe.

Also in the astral realm, or spiritual realm, you can be different than your physical earth appearance. Eg. You could be a different race, gender, or something else entirely. On earth you might be young, but look old in spirit, and the reverse is true, you might look older on earth, but a much younger spirit.

Dream Babies

A few people have discussed this. Do dream children exist? Depends on the book you read, some say no, others say yes. One guy in his astral experience wrote about going back to the astral plane, and meeting a child who explained that he was his. So I guess this depends on what you read, if you believe in the existence of this realm.

This would explain where all the people are coming from, if we are formed and exist before we come to earth, for spiritual experience. So I tend to believe that this is true.

Dream Sex

In the same book, the guy who wrote about his dream kid, also wrote about his astral sex. Apparently it might be possible.

Pretty interesting, but scary concept. From what I have read because it’s spirit, you don’t share diseases, or much of the junk that humans have to worry about here. Feelings and emotions might be more true. Cause it’s spirit, without the physical limitations. From various books, and sources, I tend to think that this is true.

The only problem with this is he goes on to say, because everything is spirit, that lot’s of assaults happen, and it sounds like a pretty wild west place. I think he also goes on to talk about meeting demons and other worldly beings in astral. Also he has had girlfriends in astral, who no longer exist on this plane.

Higher Plane

In addition to the astral realm, there are higher realms, harder to access for the beginner. These realms are suppose to be where more evolved spirits and beings reside.

I have to read up on this more but it sounds interesting.

Reincarnation

Ah reincarnation. A subject that I ducked out on most of my life, only to find that I am a complete believer now. I don’t think I doubted reincarnation, but I don’t think I ever let myself believe. I am a believer now.

Lost loves

Who do we fall in love with and why? Not only do some suggest that we meet in other realms before this one, but some suggest that we have known each other in past life times and most of the people that you fall in love with, might actually end up being people from these past life experiences.

Races and faces.

If you read enough about this subject and study it, you will understand that we can be and will be many races and faces. So I could be an Asian male today, Indian female in another life, and so forth.

What if we find someone and we are in the wrong stage, or in an impossible situation. What if you are a girl in this life time, but meet your former wife, who you knew when you were a guy?

What if you have strong racial views in this lifetime, but find that your soul mate is someone outside of that race?

What if you are older and your soul mate is under 18? You could very well have incarnate at separate times, because incarnations do not always match up, then what? Do you wait or move on?

On of the best stories I ever read about this was a wife who died, but her husband before she died told her he would wait forever. Well he didn’t, he married her best friend. She came back reincarnated, and was very upset that he did not wait. She is a child and he is a man, but she remembers a lot about their marriage. (I have blogged about this case before.)

Also just because you loved someone and they were perfect for you once, does not always assure that they will be perfect for you again. It is hoped so, that is why people are always looking to find their soul mates. I now believe that we often love people we have known before, but we can also find new loves. I think the world is a very strange and mysterious place, and I strive to understand it as much as anyone else.

Also since I believe we are spirit, that lowly beggar girl that you cast off today in flesh, could be of royal principality in spirit. Don’t discount people, because of your silly life constructs, go outside the box.

Holographic Universe

http://www.newscientist.com/article/mg20126911.300-our-world-may-be-a-giant-hologram.html?full=true

[quote]Our world may be a giant hologram [/quote]

[quote]If this doesn’t blow your socks off, then Hogan, who has just been appointed director of Fermilab’s Center for Particle Astrophysics, has an even bigger shock in store: “If the GEO600 result is what I suspect it is, then we are all living in a giant cosmic hologram.”

The idea that we live in a hologram probably sounds absurd, but it is a natural extension of our best understanding of black holes, and something with a pretty firm theoretical footing. It has also been surprisingly helpful for physicists wrestling with theories of how the universe works at its most fundamental level.[/quote]

What living in a giant hologram and science is now saying this? I bet a lot of you missed that memo right?

http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2009/02/090203081609.htm

[quote]How Many Dimensions In The Holographic Universe?
ScienceDaily (Feb. 9, 2009) — Viennese scientists are trying to understand the mysteries of the holographic principle: How many dimensions are there in our universe?
[/quote]

Imagine this, we could be living in a giant hologram. With multiple instances of ourselves.

In one dimension you could be a law abiding cop, in another a thief. In one dimension single, in another happily married, in another divorced, and in another, not existing at all.

Again in a multi dimensional universe, you could have various versions of you, with different experiences. You could be saint in one, and sinner in another. You could be a serial killer in one, and a detective trying to catch a serial killer in another. Imagine the possibilities, our scientists are.

Different believes, views, all dependent on the variables in those constructs. One dimension where your love leaves you pregnant and alone, another where things work out. so many possibilities. One where you win the girl, one where she marries your sister.

The world is stranger than we know, and the science is just starting to catch up with what the spiritualist have been saying for years.

This would normally segway into quantum physics, but I think a few new concept for the kiddies is more than enough for one night.

I know these concepts are going to be hard for many to fathom, much less accept. I know for people with strong racial views, believing that you might be a different race in spirit, another dimension, or a past or future life might be a hard concept.

For the atheist who does not believe in anything, this might be a real mind bender as well.

For the religious, you might be christian today, Buddhist tomorrow, Muslin the next.

The world is a strange place. I also think that this could be why people have a hard time and change their appearance. If you are lucky enough to come to earth you might get here, but be a guy in a girls body. Be Asian in spirit, but black on earth. I think this could in part explain why people try to change things about themselves in extreme ways, without even realising it.

The Bible

This is a great reference point for some of this stuff.

It tells us that Jesus was a being that existed before who came to earth to try to help save them. Pre-existance.

The bible might also talk about reincarnation, when he is asked who John is, he references Elias.

It takes about Angels who took on physical forms of humans, and came to earth to marry humans. Makes you wonder if this is where some of the Greek and Roman mythology comes from?

Or maybe all those stories happened on some astral plane, that our ancestors were just more in tune with, and aware of. Maybe the veil was less guarded at one point in the past.

Gods and Goddess, and people in mythology stories, have impossible births, Zeus is a cad who is hard to keep up with. I think at some point in the past, before our technical age, people were more in touch with spirit, and thus these experiences might have happened on an astral plane, but people were just more aware, and the stories carried down. I think a lot of this knowledge is lost, or just kept from the general public. I think if we had access to this, we could essentially change the world for the better. (Or for the worst, at the rate humans are going.)

Are we real?

Does it matter? If we do live in a hologram, or this is a virtual reality does it matter? Would you change how you act? Some would some would not.

That is in part why we have a veil that keeps us from knowing more about the great beyond. I think there is a good reason for it, but I would like to know more spiritually.

In some ways I am as confused as anyone else. I use to think that if things happened in the astral plane, they automatically extended here. Then I lost that belief, and just thought, what happens in the astral realms stays there, and that they are just two different places. I am re-examining that view.

What I do believe, you can be of one mind in flesh, and another in spirit and dreams. If dreams are the astral realm, and the astral realm is in part where people go when they leave here, I think that realm could be more complex than here. What if people leave there to have a vacation on earth? Wouldn’t that be scary?

From what I have read, people come here for experiences they can not get in spirit. The matrix allows them to experience and interact differently than they do in spirit. Apparently it has it’s advantages and draw backs.

I think I believe what I have always believed, the world is very complex, but interesting place. We are more than these bodies, these external avatars that we take on from lifetime to lifetime, from dimension to dimension. We are spirit, spirit comes in many shapes, genders, races. I think to become who we are meant to be, we will take on most of them. I think we will be sinner, saint, savior, and somewhere in between.

If this gets too complex, then don’t worry about it, just row, row, row your boat, gently down the stream, merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream.

Been there.

Been there, done that. This whole Gang Stalking thing should seem really alien to me, but it doesn't. I don't mean Gang Stalking specifically, but being persecuted, sort of excluded, maybe tortured, it all seems so familiar, and some days I sit and think, been there, done that, probably will do it again.

Which leaves me to wondering, if I really have been there, done that, what was the point, and what is the point of this? Do we really choose these paths? These lives, these destinies? I already told you recently that I do now believe that we exist over and over again. If so then why, and do we really choose these paths? I mean is this torture, persecution something that I would really choose, that anyone would really choose? On a conscience level, I would hope not, but on a subconscious level is there something to be gained? Is there some sort of spiritual growth, and understanding to be had from a life like this? Why are there so many character similarities in the people that are going through these experiences?

I've had these thoughts on the brain a little bit, maybe a lot lately. Not saying that I have any answers, but I am asking the questions again, which is something that I had stopped doing with the whole Gang Stalking thing. I mean state torture, does not put you in the mood for quarrying all things cosmic, maybe something about being electronically fried that just ruins the mood. Anyways, it's an interesting quarry, for those of us in this situation, with a belief in higher things, why are we going through this? Did some part of us choose some parts of this, if not on a conscience level, then on a subconscious level?

Are we destined to repeat these types of experiences in some capacity, do they really help us grow? Again don't have the answers, just the questions.

I was at a park the other day, and I was actually enjoying myself, it as a large space, so my encounters with snitches were minimal, and people seemed to be more concerned with walking dogs, playing sports, taking their kids to swing, normal stuff people use to do, and still do, but they seemed for the most part to be more into that, than any noticeable citizen stalker following me around. It was nice, anyways. I came to this spot and this dog was doing a pointer pose, you know here they put one foot up, and then point. The dog had the pointer pose directed at a squirrel. The squirrel didn't notice, but me and a few other people did. The squirrel was just innocently foraging for whatever, meanwhile the dog, clearly had other things in mind. Much like us, and the government that is trying to destroy us.

The dog did this for several minutes all the while drawing closer to it's target, while the smaller creature sat there unaware. Anyways by this time a bit of a crowd had gathered to see the fate of the squirrel. At one point it looked like it was headed safely up the tree, but then came back, as the predator drew closer, all the while I am thinking, why don't I do something. I mean I wanted to help the squirrel, but it was almost like you had to wait and let it play itself out. However I did try to do subtle little things to get it's attention, little noises, telepathic communication, (didn't work.), visualization, anything to get the squirrel up the tree, without interfering. I am sure some of our stalkers feel the same way at times. It was like being in one of those nature shows. I am sure most people wanted the squirrel to escape, but I am sure some wanted it to meet the other fate, anyways at the moment to dog got close enough to pouch, just as it was about to pounce a noisy large vehicle from the street drove by, broke the suspended animation silence and saved the squirrel. It ran up the tree the way I had tried picture it.
Still I walked away, wondering why I had not just thrown something at it? However we all stood there, even as I stood there, I was like why don't I just do this or that, but a part of me had to just let it play itself out, but even then I knew I could try to will the outcome, and visualise the squirrel being safe, and try to get it's attention is subtle ways to steer it out of danger, but I still don't understand why I didn't just throw something?

I think the same suspended animation at times holds the human conscience in it's place. We know we should do something about this creepy future world enslavement that is slowly coming forth, but something holds us in place. we try to do what we can in subtle ways, but we don't do anything outlandish, that would save the squirrel, but we try to get it's attention, but no heavy interference. I don't think the loud vehicle that drove by just before the dog pounced was an accident. I think it was part of the collective will. Even if we did not warn it openly, we could hope for it's escape, visualise it safely up the tree, hope that something would come along and save it, and so something did. Even if you can't always do it openly, there can be subtle ways to shape human destiny, or help it along.

At this stage I don't know if I should tell you about some of the stuff that I have been reading or do a separate post. Hum?

Well been reading about Reincarnation. From the latest book, which I enjoyed, I learnt about matter being able to appear out of nowhere and go back there again. I was reminded that past, present and future do not happen separately on the continuum, but happen simultaneously, or something similar.

There was one quote that really caught my eye.
http://cotu.nomadlife.org/past/2004_12_01_archive.aspx

The author is talking about Reincarnation, why he can't quite believe it, but can't quite dismiss it either. He says:

[quote]"Even though I immediately sensed that the 'sign' wasn't what it seemed, it was years before I came to see it the way I still do. For some reason, I was given this gift, this weird, irrefutable demonstration that there is a more to the world than its surface. That whatever we're all about, whatever the universe is, it is far more than just some empty, mechanical, material machine. There is some. . . force out there, something beyond knowing, that we can nonetheless--on some level--feel, and see and interact with. My petty life, and all my personal concerns, in some way connected up with something so big, so far beyond myself, that it could choreograph a little performance like that tailored perfectly to what was going on in the mind of one confused kid."[/quote]

What does this have to do with Gang Stalking, it's the whole of why we are here, why we are having this experience, why some of us have even made it this far, and where do we go from here. Why other will get the right search term to lead them to the concept of Gang Stalking and others won't. Why others will connect all the dots in time, and others won't. How we are going to figure this out. I don't think I would have gotten here with just logic alone, when I did, I checked the facts, rechecked, removed what did not fit, looked for other answers, but some of the times I found the path best guided was when I reached out to a higher source, force, a power within, without, whatever you believe.

I think I have been here, I think I have done this, or something similar, I probably will again. I am asking the questions however, as to why, what my purpose is, and how I can do what I am meant to do, in this moment.

Just some stuff that I thought might be nice to share.

Exhausted.

This post goes out to any other weary traveller that has been exhausted on their path. May you find the most peaceful slumber. :-)

I woke up this morning and I was really exhausted. Not just because of the electronic harassment on going and the fact that I have been forgetting to shield properly, but because of other things.

Other unanswered questions, not really, I realise the answers and solutions will come when you are ready and you let yourself be open to them.

Ok this post is mostly not gang stalking related, so feel free to tune out.

I have been thinking a lot about reincarnation, not because I am wondering about it anymore, but because I am sure that we do reincarnate. Time and time again we take shape and form, to have human experiences. We form bonds, love, hate, and we tend to reincarnate and be attached and attracted to those we have formed the strongest bonds to. That's the truth, it's weird, but it's the truth. It's a truth that I knew on some elemental level, but always refused to believe or fully accept until recently.

For any Trekkie's out there, think Dax, and how the host inherits the memories of the previous host. Except with humans we thankfully don't often remember what is behind the veil. That is often closed from one lifetime to the next for good reason. Makes sense, I mean you would remember people, places, pain, love, and you could do very little about it, because you are a different entity and must start anew, no going through on the good Karma of your last incarnation. Well that's not fully true. Even if we don't openly remember, we have feelings of, or a sense of it. It's all really interesting stuff.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rejoined
http://youtube.com/watch?v=_fasAZI8sYI&feature=related

I also accept that we can have pretty real spiritual experiences in human form. Some which we remember, many that we won't. I accept that the spirit realm might be as messed up, or more messed up than this place.

I also accept that really rational logic people can find themselves in strange circumstances where they don't know what to do. along with the whole Gang Stalking thing, I have for the last several months, found myself in a circumstance which for many would seem even more strange than Gang Stalking, except for me, nothing has topped finding out that the world is a creepy government experiment, with snitches at just about every corner. Otherwise this experience would normally top it, and for many others I am sure it does.

Anyways along with that strange path came a lot of weird baggage. I found myself in yet another game I did not want to be a part of, and every time I thought I had finally yanked myself out of the game, I was right back in and sinking deeper and deeper. I wanted out, but just kept getting pulled back in. I realised that the only way to win the game some months back, was just to leave it and lose. Sometimes when you lose you win, and sometimes you win, you really lose. Anyways with and often without my consent or willingness to participate the game continued.

The majority of the players knowing way more about what was ongoing with the game than I did. What else is new. One more area of my life that I suddenly was not in control of, not in charge of, and I hated it, but could not pull myself out.

During that time, I am trying to find the answers to the universe, what to do about the Gang Stalking, and the fact that the world is pretty much enslaved already, the fact that their is a whole entire spirit world that we can tap into if we really want to, mostly if we are at our happiest. So in the midst of the usual junk, I had more weirdness to contend with.

I often think it's bad enough that the government can get inside our private spaces, imagine when they get inside your head and can hear your thoughts, know your dreams better then you, and what is going in your inner realm better than you do? Creepy? Yes, I am just glad that even if they can read minds, they can't read hearts.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=8ErTP6a2Kik

Anyways back to the irritating game. It was like playing with an immature preschooler, who can't make up it's mind. Except really what was happening was dealing with an entity that wanted to see how long the game could be played. Back and forth the ball would spin, all the while promising a winner for the game, and really the only winner was the spinner.

Still a fun trip, one that was better not taken. A path that was better left unmapped and uncharted. It hurt a few innocents in it's wake, that's what I am most sad about. That's the part of this path that I hated. My mandate is to not do harm to others, but every time I got sucked back into this path, it would invariably hurt others, people that I actually had concern for. It was a really bad path to be on. One that I should never have been on, or stayed on as long as I did. Yet it gave me insight into a realm that I would not have had insight into otherwise. A realm that I want to know more about.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=exVMdxJ8H7w

Anyways last week I took the advise that I had given myself months ago, and finally got off the path. It's a game that is never ending, the rules are always the same. Nothing ever changes. Keep the target off balance. In a state of anxiety. Never let them know what is really going on. Be the one in control. After Gang Stalking, this was just another version of the same thing.

Anyways I hope I can stay sober and off the path. (Sober being an expression only.) So that's my big share moment. Anyways when a path leaves you exhausted, weary, tired, etc. Sometimes as much as we hate it, and might want to hang on, you just have to exhale. Speaking of which, I want to say congrats to Whitney Houston on making a come back. I read that after years of being away she is recording again. Good for Whitney, sometimes things and people pull you off your path, and sometimes circumstances get you back to where you need to be. I am told that destiny is not a matter of chance, it's a matter of choice.

http://youtube.com/watch?v=RuWyIKdxSzU