Redemption Song.

Life is a journey and you get to decide how you want to live it. We are not just physical beings, in fact I have heard it said that we are spiritual beings having a physical journey.

Life is also what you make it. So you have to choose your own paths. Targets and others alike. The hardest part for me about this crazy government targeting, was not only being targeted, but realising that others were being targeted as well. It's bad enough what was happening to me, but to know it was happening to others was just creepy out there weird. You would think being tracked, monitored, and tortured in my home was a unique experience, but it was not. It was happening to so many others, their screams, silent alone, were also being heard somewhere across time and space. On cyberspace we finally had a chance for our collective voices and shared experiences to be heard. The collective consciousness could gather as one and borg together our experiences.

It does not change anything, but it's given us a chance of hope, vindication, and even a chance for redemption for some. The second hardest thing for me to understand was not, only does this happen to many in society, but that some where tortured until they cracked, and became themselves these zombies that could then do the same to their own kind. That part was and still is hard for me to understand.

I mean you would get the apologies sometimes but people were still actively, and openly participating in trying to ruin and destroy my life. That was the part that was hard to understand. I mean I always thought that if you hated something for yourself you would not do it to others right? However in reading about and researching Stasi Germany I see that many others did, and probably will. That part for me is still hard to come to terms with. Targets can be targets and (Snitches) perps at the same time. Yeah I am still working on that one, mentally.

Romans 12: 9-13."And at that time many will fall away and will betray one another and hate one another. And many false prophets will arise, and will mislead many. And because lawlessness is increased, most people’s love will grow cold. But the one who endures to the end, it is he who shall be saved. "

Growing up it was hard to understand why neighbours would be betraying neighbours and family would betray family, of course this sort of snitch system has been used since at least the Roman time period, so it's not hard to believe that others had seen it in play. Eg. Judas betrayal.
For the longest time in my world it was targets against the snitches. There was no way for me to see the gray areas. I mean when I was just researching this, trying to understand how society and the world could be like this, as I was being introduced to electronic torture for the first time was a real eye opener. It still blows my mind, that you can be at home, and be tortured in your home, so much so that you wake up with burns, and your skin pealing, and then you just have to go about your day. You can have little pin sized holes burnt into your skin, and face, and then you just have to find a way to still have a normal life. Separate the two worlds so that you can function.

If I was going through this by myself it would have been hard, but being able to provide comfort to others that were going through this was helpful for me. My unheard screams were not the loudest in space anymore, others were more confused and in need of comfort and clarity than I was. Doing the site over the last year and a half, has been a journey, one that many targets were able to travel with me, while we figured out what was happening to us, while we tried to understand together how the world could be like this. To find a way to function. I admit that the jobless, at home times even with the torture did give me lot's of time for reflection and that really helped.

I mean you live on this planet for years, and you never have any idea, any clue that the world could be like this. I didn't I was completely clueless. I always trusted everything, and thought everything was so safe, loved my country, and trusted my government and that we were the good guys and had everyone's best intentions at heart. I see how manipulated I was, but innocence and ignorance are an interesting mix.

http://gangstalkingworld.com/Forum/YaBB.pl?action=print;num=1201459219

Others discover the truth, with horrifying consequences. I mean who would believe that much of humanity are nothing better than slaves right? That life was a lot more like the Matrix than we realised, and that on top of that, there are other forces in the world and the universe that we know nothing about.

David Icke talks alot about other forces that control the forces that control this planet. The bible says that "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Ephesians 6:12" Also on the website in 2 worlds, references are again made to other influences not of this world.

I have always been a spiritual person, I believe in spiritual things, but even as a spiritual person there is so much that I am just starting to learn now, just when you think it could not get any weirder, you learn something new everyday. However in that learning, I see that there are many others out there who can help light my way toward better understanding and for that I am grateful, and for my part I am trying to do what I can every step along the way.

A weekend in the life of gangstalking.

A weekend in the life of gangstalking. Ok this weekend I was suppose to do some long overdue Targeted Individual shopping, but since I finally am starting to get back to doing my normal things that meant spending some time online and touching base with some people not related to gang stalking. Yes before this began I did have another life.

http://www.Youtube.com.

Ok this weekend was great. My youtube finally started functioning 100% again. I swear I am dating youtube sometimes. For the last two months it did not work as well as it should. The electronic harassment stuff does not seem to bother my computer, but the microwave stuff is not the best for me or my computer.

Anyways I spent the weekend catching up on my youtube vids that I had missed. I caught up on the David Icke series I had been wanting to see for some time. I caught up on some other videos that I had wanted to see. I also got to see the two banned episodes of this show called the boondocks. It was time well spent.

Blogs

Let's go to newly discovered blogs next. I discovered all these great blogs this weekend. Most of them can be found on the links section of the website, but if you don't want to visit it on your own, let me highlight just a few of the many I discovered here.

http://apocalypto-wanderings.blogspot.com/

Now this is Bills blog above. He is a retired pilot who lives in Floria. He has a wicked attitude and he is not afraid to scare off perps with the great liberal gun laws that Florida has. (Hey I am not advocating, but it was a funny and refreshing read.) However lately they have been hitting him with what sounds like microwaves as well. He's a tuff one like me and he is hanging in there. He says that Florida is a great place for targets cause they have all these liberal gun laws. Anyways a nice read and lot's of fun.

http://badexperiment.com/

A blog by a Targeted Individual. The blog is suppose to be from a Christian perspective. (Aren't most of them?) Anyways, this target claims to have gotten over gang stalking. I am not sure that is the case, but the blog is a refreshing read. The story is told eloquently and it's easy to follow and just flows. I really enjoyed this blog more than I expected. I added some of the choice posts from this blog, to the posts with the most section of the site.

http://in2worlds.net/gangstalking-and-targeted-individuals

In 2 worlds. Oh my gosh this blog was just so in tune with what I was going through. Where my thoughts were heading. It really goes ahead of the game. I only got through a few really good quality posts. I wish I had had more time to get through the whole blog, but my weekend was a full one online. However this blog rounded out the day and it just seemed to fall right in line with all that I had read and experienced. For the first time since Gang Stalking started. I really feel like I am falling back in sync with where I am suppose to be. As you saw from the mini blurb I posted on the site.

Finding the potentials. You know from my last posting that I am on a real find the potentials kick. So really this weekend was all about that. I don't really know how to find them offline. Well accidentally I do, but not deliberately. There was that one time, but I ended up following the wrong person, this is before I understood more of the one handed sign language.

Anyways so I spent some time on google, yahoo, youtube trying to find them. That took up a good chunk of the weekend. However I discovered a site called

http://www.experienceproject.com

There was a group called "I Am Being Stalked And My House Is Being Bugged And Wiretapped - Forum " Can you believe that. There were like 5 people in that group, that had experienced this stuff. None of them had a name for what was happening to them, or anything. I think I can say I hit the jackpot with this group. So I spent the weekend emailing them, and just adding a whack of stuff to their group. Eg. Links, articles, books, videos,etc.

Before i got there they were getting the usual community support. Eg. You are nuts, why would strangers want to stalk you, you are not that important, have you seen a doctor, I was on drugs and thought that was happening to me. etc. Anyways I shone my gangstalking light into that darkness. Notice the haters faded away?

After that I started a Gang Stalking group on the site. This occupied most of my afternoon. http://www.experienceproject.com/group_profile.php?g=88474

Feel free to join if you wish. Ok, but I did not stop there. I also found one more potential and someone who had questions.

http://www.safe4all.org/forums/message-view?message%5fid=61437

I think this also sounds like it could be Gang Stalking.
Then I found this great Oprah thread. Bout time someone there strikes up the conversation.

http://www.oprah.com/community/message-view.jspa?messageID=449335&stqc=true
I had other fun online, but I think that is the bulk of my shenanigans.

I also felt for once that i was experiencing something really spiritual. I realise that the body can be in one place, but the mind can almost be walking in 2 worlds. Again why discovering that blog was so in tune with my thoughts.

Anyways it was such a fulfilling weekend. I really felt in sync with so many things. I think spiritually I am getting back to where I need to be, where I was before a lot of this started.
The thing I am discovering about targets is more of what I knew. They are these bright, intelligent people. The things that they are into. When I read their blogs, it's just really shines through for me, and a lot of times I see a lot of me in their postings. It's amazing, but I am actually finding people I like, and would want to connect to. People that I have this amazing, albeit weird shared experience with. It's great in some ways, but painful in others, because I wish that I could do more.

Like one potential said to me on the weekend, what's the point of these sites if they can't tell us how to get justice or how to get this stuff to stop? My answer is that it's just knowing the truth, having the shared experience, knowing you are not going crazy. For me when I found out there was a name for what was happening to me, I was so happy. The potential I spoke to on the weekend, was crying, she could not believe that after how many years there was a name for
what was happening.

I do wish that I could have done more, but for now, being able to find her, and put a name to what was happening to her, (provided she was a real target) was all that I could do. I am hoping that by finding them, it will help to give them a fighting change. I know it did for me. I will always be grateful for finding that link to Gang Stalking. It answered years of questions, and it finally confirmed things that I suspected, but would not, could not voice. It was a light and if I can pay it forward I will.

Anyways, I have not heard back from any of the other potentials, but I will keep you updated. They all were sent emails, but wither they arrived, is another story.

Oh I also touched base with DaveinDublin, he has seen the post, but it's hard to say much else on the subject, so I won't.

Anyways, it was such a fulfilling and worthwhile weekend. I am sure the outside world missed me, but I was doing what I could do and it felt so good. Also it's the one weekend where if I was charged with a crime, I could pretty much prove my whereabouts, just by my online postings and interactions. Kinda neat. :-)

Out for a walk

for So I went out for a walk today. It was really nice. This month has been all together just so nice. The sun was just the right amount of warmth, and it was just so beautiful. It' the sort of day you dream about, maybe I did. I went for a walk cause I am offline today. I woke up and my telephone and Internet were just gone. It was like ok. I really needed to get some stuff done and the last while has been sort of problems with the Internet and things like that. Plus there are all these other weird things happening with my phone line it's hard to explain. Like yesterday I called someone from one connection, they could not hear me, so I called back the same number on the land line and ofcourse someone completely different answered the phone. I could see that I had dialed the right number, but I called again sagangstame thing. Plus sometimes the phone upstairs in my neighbours home rings, I hear nothing at my end in my apartment, but then I get a message on my answering machine. The phone company has offered to look into it and to try to bill me if the problem is on my end. investigations, what category does that fall into? Anyways I hope they get the problem fixed soon, but theny time outside today. Plus since the phone going dead without any dial tone was what would happen at the other apartment I am sure it's being done from the same source. I understand this is outside of the guidelines, but then so is everything else, however it's something that should be getting reported, so here it is. From what I understand there are guidelines that should be getting followed and cutting off my phone/Internet service is not one of them. So many targets report these sorts of interferences. Sometimes you just have to watch them in action and see the stuff that they do, and come up with. They get the stupidest creatures working for them, and with them sometimes it's just frustrating, but that's the idea. Oh well.

It's weird you know it feels like the world has changed, but then I realise that it has not. The world is the exact same as it always was, the only thing that has changed is my perception of it. People snitching, spying, betraying, lying it's all the same as it ever was. My awareness is all that has changed. The world is as it always was. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, but that is where it is.

I had gone for a walk the other day as well, and it was so nice, people, children the park I walked past, it all seemed so nice, but in the back drop their is this knowledge. It's almost like in T2 (Terminator 2) You see Sarah at the park with the kid, and the swing, then you see the other Sarah, the one who is all too aware of the danger and the destruction that is about to happen, and then you get that really cool nuclear war scene. It happens so fast. I am not exactly expecting nuclear war, but my city for me has changed. I mean we are nothing better than the Stasi's were. People lying, spying and betraying each other. Then there is still the other scenes. People living their day to day lives. Some maybe not snitching and spying, some maybe not even aware of these happenings, like I was not just a year ago. That anniversary is up and coming. A year of being aware of this weirdness. I don't see how targets do this. Some for years and years. I guess I understand why some opt out of the game, or change sides, or just lose it. Anyways for today the world is just so beautiful and wonderful.

I decided to take some time and go to the park. I wanted to write and update you, my people out in cyberspace. Offline it's like cat has got every-one's tongue, and online it's just so different. Some people can actually talk about what is happening, offline it's harder. No one knows who they can trust, and they are scared, or happily going along with this, leading their little existences, hoping to stay off the radar of the powers that be. Knowing this time is coming slowly, but surly, like a woman who is about to give birth, the contractions of this end time, will start to come closer and closer together, till the moment is here. I think that is sort of how the bible described some of this stuff. It's all making sense. It never does at the time it's all written down, but prophesy unfolding is a pretty neat thing. One world government, global dominance, and a snitch force to keep everyone in line, mini contractions of this system that is soon fully to be born. People giving up their wills, and worshiping or bowing down to whoever and whatever. Yep humans pretty much do not change.

Back to my day. So I took a walk, it was a wonderful walk. It was a walk that was straight out of a dream. It was just so nice. It was like I had walked it before. It was just so familiar. I felt like I knew what would happen along the path I don't remember dreaming about the day or how it would be, but it was more like a feeling, like I knew what would happen along the path.

I knew that when I walked down a specific street, it would be like I would run into an old friend, and in a way I did. I expected to find this specific store at a certain point and there it was. Remember this is a path that I have never walked before, but I knew it with such certainty. Then after I left the store, I just realised or had a sense that I was going the wrong way, so after I changed directions, I walked the other way. I wound up in front of a police station. Today I was suppose to follow up on trying to get the reports filed, I had called and left a message yesterday, to say that I would be calling back today. So I really did not want to go in face to face, I mean we all know my wonderful journey thus far, and I was just going to walk away, but I had the strongest feeling that I was suppose to go in, you know, like I had already done this. So I bucked up the courage, I did not have any of my notes with me. I mean I didn't have the report printed out, so I could not just leave a copy of that with someone, which is the advice I received last week. Like I said I would have walked away, but it was just so familiar, just like everything else on that path. I have heard people describe this before, I think I have forgotten a lot of this spiritual stuff that I know on the one hand. So anyways I went in. I ran into this really youthful looking officer. He really looked very young. However he seemed really nice. Now I use to think I could tell if people were good or bad, etc, but ofcourse the last year of my life has taught me differently. Remember I was the one with everyone in my life helping directly or indirectly to ruin me. Most of the people I thought I knew or sort of trusted were a part of this, however he just seemed so familiar. The conversation flowed more or less, and to make a long story short he is going to try to update the report from December. The one where office Broker really messed up the report that I filed, and based on the stuff that I have seen, and that has happened to other targets, probably intentional.

So anyways I have no assurances that this officer will do anything different than the others have, I did not do all the things that I know that I am suppose to do when interacting with the police force, since I realise that targets are not able to trust the people they were taught to trust. I have no guarantees, that he will do anything different. My guarantees are his word. Are people's words worth anything anymore? He seemed really nice, but then so do a lot of other people including sociopaths, and pedophiles, that's why they are able to get away with that stuff for such long periods of time. The main thing that I am going on is that it felt like what I was suppose to do. No more importantly it felt like something I had already done, and the physical here and now was just this formality. There were these awesome flowers out on the road today, nothing out of the ordinary, but how many times have I stopped to smell the roses in the last year? It was just so nice to do that today. I really don't know how I manage to spend so much time inside. Yet I do.

I am going to cut this post short. I am in the park and I am out of juice or soon will be. So all I have is my own sense of this was what I was suppose to be doing today, and the word of a really nice looking youthful officer, who seemed sincere, but don't they all. So we will see what we will see. Anyways, I am going to enjoy the rest of the day, and the moment I am back online, or get to a cafe, I will get this cool mellow post out to you.

Peace out.