Affirmation

This is a little affirmation. It's just a quick follow up to the I Am Happy post.

I want to stay happy. For me this means on a spiritual level staying as far away as I can from those things that made me unhappy. It means not going back to the darkness, and staying in the light.

I like breathing in air. I like when an experience is right the fact that it just flows. For me the last few years really shook my beliefs in how things worked when they were right, how things flowed. The reason being that in some spiritual aspect, I was not in a good place, where things flowed, where things worked. I just was not happy.

The brief glimpse of happy that I had restored my faith in that, brought air back into my lungs, and I don't ever willingly or unwilling want to be dragged back into that place. It was an unappreciated place, that did not love or care for me, it was a place that brought me unhappiness.

I feel the flow that I had not felt for awhile, and I don't want anything to do with the place where I was. I see now that when you are around the right situations, people, that love you, care for you, nurture you, it makes all the difference, and it's as clear as a bell.

There is no confusion, psychological manipulation, no game, just a free flow, and that is where I am going to be. I am moving forward. I think the glimpse of what a happy stable, well cared for spirit, has been an inspiration for me.

It's restored my faith in a lot of things. I find now that I am able to distance myself from things and people that are not good for me on a physical plane. I still wish I had more control of distancing, or permanently removing unwanted elements, on a spiritual level, but I think that will come in time.

Being happy, even if it's for a moment makes such a difference. I feel back in my game, so this is just a quick affirmation of that.


The old game, that was played for the last few years stop here. I am moving forward, I am distancing myself from the last few years of things that did not work for me in spirit, I want nothing to do with that path, it was not a well path, and it is not something that I want.

I have found new paths, that have been kind, warm, welcoming, and those paths, or similar are where I will be in spirit, and if I can find similar on this plane, I might just do the same.

Brighting and other observations.

Brighting.

Remember how we were told that this was used for gaslighting targets at night? Well I think this might not be the case. I recently had an opportunity to be exposed to this phenomenon and I have a few observations.

I don't get exposed to this phenomenon too much so, it's been very difficult observe it properly and to do a proper assessment. Well recently they were circling me, I use this term, because they remind me of sharks, but they don't really circle, so much as drive up the street and flash the high beams at you a few times.

Now in the past when I have been exposed to this, it's been one car, I usually sneer at them and go on my way, but recently I had a few cars in a row do it, and I realised, I don't think it's gaslighting or it's not just gaslighting alone.

After a few of this, I realised that they were waiting for something so I flashed them the open communications and on observation signals. (Yeah I emotionally showered after.) I don't do use the signals too often, in early research when I was learning what they were, I used them to confirm that I was correct, and then most times they are put away, till I have to be around the informants for long periods of time, or if I have to do field testing to confirm things or test things out.

Anyways, after this, the circling stopped. So think about it. During the day, the foot patrols signal to the people in the cars, right, well at night it's dark, so you are a snitch in your car, you see someone walking, you want to know if it's one of yours, so you flash the beams at them, and if they are, they should signal back the appropriate signals right?

Think about those old spy movies, and they flash the highbeams, and then the person responses by lighting a cigarette or something.

Now I have not had any real time to field test this, and they don't use brighting on me enough, so it could be awhile before I get to confirm this, but if any other targets are out there and they get this, then you might want to field test it. It might help give you a one up.

So that would make brighting a little bit more important than once thought. It's been close to three years and it never really occurred to me, that's why we need to keep thinking outside of the box, and again I have not had time to properly field test this, but I have reason to believe the hypothesis is correct.


The other concept that I want to touch on is one that I came across in Control Factor, Matrix, and I think the movie They Live.

It's this concept that anyone can be an agent, just about anyone can be used. I came across it again in control factor, but it just also reminded me of the other two movies.

In control factor, what they can do is they can use a beam to almost like possess someone else and speak and act through that person, you see the same thing in the Matrix with them possessing people and taking them over, and in they live you never knew who might be one of them without your real world glasses on. It's just an interesting concept and it's also interesting because you see this theme in so many movies, and then we have a society where large portions are informants. Plus there is concept that some are in constant contact, with others who they are getting orders from and instructions. It's interesting the movies that are out there.


Set Up's.

Online recently other than falsely labeling my site, there seems to be an effort by some to paint me as a person who is bashing others and creating infighting. If bashing others means calling it like it is, and telling the truth about what is ongoing, then so be it, but the same standards they use for others, they better use for themselves. Second with infighting. Guess what, the reason I believe in a leaderless resistance is because for the most part it avoids that. The way this system works is that each sector does their own thing, it's just like how each fusion center does it's own thing, well if we want to be effective, each mini resistance to a degree has to do it's own thing, no two can be or should be exactly alike, and that makes it harder to eliminate everyone. The same tactics they use, we should use similar. I remember in the movie V and V the final battle each city had it's own chapter of the resistance.

Therefore since I tend to stay separate for the most part, unless someone does something deliberate like attacking my website, with some phony witch hunt, then I don't have a problem with anyone, but if you expect to attack me or mine without getting it back, or getting called on it, it's not going to happen.


Offline.

They seem to be really trying to squeeze my resources. Not just me, but those around me and anyone that might be of aid or assistance to me. I remember when Mark M. Rich on his old site talked about this. He had a couple of sisters and they all sold their homes and moved into smaller places, places that he would not be able to stay at if he should become homeless.


I remember that they made Rachel homeless, and another target was homeless when they further took his resources away, arrested him, and turned him into an informant. See that's why I try to not judge people, because I remember some of the stuff that I have read.

Also the reason some of stay alive this long, I like to think it's because we are a bit clever, but in reality it might just be because they can keep us on the borders. See people like Jeremy Blake and Theresa Duncan, they had means, and Jeremy was loyal to her. You could not get them both by making them poor, unemployed whatever, so Theresa was found dead one day, apparently a suicide, and Jeremy shortly after because he was so upset about her suicide. I have always believe these were not suicides, but proving it is another story.

For those who don't know the story here is a link.
http://gangstalking.wordpress.com/category/jeremy-blake/

I should point out that Theresa on her blog if I recall correctly had her FOIA and it showed that she had been investigated. I would have to double check this, but I think that is correct.




http://gangstalkingworld.com/Forum/YaBB.pl?num=1201450715

Also Ruth Goodman seems to have been someone ok, in that she owned her own home, and she had gotten past the psychological attacks when they had her arrested, implanted her in some way, and that's when the audio harassment started. She died shortly after that, supposedly under mysterious circumstances.

The closest I ever came to know more about Ruth, was finding one of her postings on a forum, but the time I went to find out more information about her, I found out that she was already dead, but her story moved me, and I have remembered it.

I think the reason they were taken out is that the state did not readily have ways to make them vulnerable, and wanted to find other ways to deal with them, and thus they did.



This is a path that no one should have to travel alone, and yet in some ways we might be safer if we do. I would remind people about some of my experiences on some of these forums, and some of the tactics that disinfo agents and informants use.

http://gangstalking.wordpress.com/2008/09/21/disinformation/


Also offline they seem to be trying for mini setup's, little things that you might not think of, but things that might get you in trouble. I have always been law abiding, and continue to be, but that does not mean they are not testing the waters to see if they can find a weak spot or a way in, trust no one, seems to be the key. It's pretty horrible, how they own people once they do set them up. I have witnessed this close up, seen people that I use to know, and they are shells, it's like they own their souls or try to, whatever they do, it's sick, and I would say it's against God, because what they do, contributes to the darkness of this world, and it's not in favor of the light what they do. All good people, must stand against this.


Rachel Hoffman is a good example of how they can make a good kid turn desperate. She was so desperate to have her own charges dropped that she was willing to first try to set up one of her friends, and then she was willing to do a drug buy, to try to get her records dropped and get the hell out of dodge, but she lost her life doing this, and the same way they can make someone like Rachel Hoffman desperate, is the same way they work on other people, little by little. There is something truly wrong with these people.

http://gangstalking.wordpress.com/2009/03/02/rachel-hoffman-disturbing-thoughts/



Anyways just to bear witness for myself again, I am anti drugs, never dabbled in anything illegal that I am aware of, don't plan to.

Again I would remind people the material is there, use it, while it's still available. Back it up, post it in various places, etc. I have seen a lot in just the last three years, and pray constantly, I think it's one of the only ways we can hold back the darkness, for any length of time.

A presence of evil

A presence of evil.

Have you ever felt it? Have you ever experienced it? There seems to be some places and people that give off this presence of evil.

I have experienced this a few times in my life, coming across a location, or a person that the only way to explain it is a presence of evil. I just again encountered that.

As many in our situation can attest what they do to us on a daily basis might fall off into the category of the hidden evil. Doing atrocious actions on a daily basis, hidden under the guise of state and national security.

However this is something outside of that. This is a presence of evil. I don't know how else to explain it.

This also brings me to some of the types of people that they hire to stalk us. I don't just mean the daily people, but I mean the types of people they get to move in on all sides of us.
Now I have written about emotional sappers before, those that drain your energy, emotional vampires of sorts, however this is beyond emotional sappers. This is along the lines of serial killer evil, that's what I am talking about.

I don't know if serial killers give off a sense of a presence of evil, but the creature that I just encountered does leave such a presence.

When it goes out at day or night I worry. I wonder if any children will go missing, if any woman will be violated, or if anyone will be harmed. I know evil when I feel it and sense it, not always, but when something puts up this much of a dark presence, it's hard not to not notice it or sense it. I think it's worth writing about.

I have such a creature that has moved in directly across from me. This creature has lived there for several months now. I mean it fit's the profile, but this has nothing to do with physical presence. Evil is not necessarily about a physical presence, it's about something else. It's the unseen realm.

Several months ago when it first moved in directly across the hall from me, I had an encounter about 3:00am in the morning with catching it trying to peek into my apartment. Now sometimes the snitches do try to look into the apartment, but it's usually during the day, and usually to try to determine if I am still in my home. This encounter was outside of that.

However that is not what it is. This is just a shadow or a sense of darkness, it's almost a dark shadow that it casts. I don't know what kind of person they have recruited in this case to move directly across from me, but it's not just my safety that I worry about. Like I said, I have encountered a sense of evil only a few times in my life, but it's been correct the few times that this has happened.

Like with anything evil, the best things you can do is expose it to the light. Let them see themselves, this seems to work very well. Exposing them or evil for itself, laying it bare before others, so that others can know it when they see it.

I am wondering how many of my readers out there have encountered this sense or presence of evil?

I recently encountered it at my door again. Oh this time it was an official spot check, but I knew it was him, before checking to see which snitch was at my gates. Every time it comes near my door there is such a sense of darkness, that lingers, it's hard to explain. It's like your soul is trying to explain from an evil shadow. It's almost like a choking presence that leaves the whole place devoid of light.

I swear it's like one of those movies, where the dark shadow passes, and everything in it's wake can feel it. I almost feel like warning mothers to hide their children, women to lock their doors, and men to remain armed.

I know it sounds outlandish, but like I said I have sensed evil only a few times, or walked into a few places, and just knew to not be there, with this creature, I am often left praying the few times I have encountered it's presence. It just leaves behind such a lingering presence of evil,
darkness, call it what you will.

Darkness can only be fought with light. Exposing what you know to be evil to light. I see that a lot with the people stalking us, and with them I know that most are just average people going along with a system. I don't count those stalking us as evil. I know that it feels that way what is being done to us, but this is something else. A true presence of evil.

I know that these people do hire people with criminal backgrounds, pedophiles, rapist, murders, and I can't help but wonder what this creatures dark past is, or what bodies remain hidden under his former door steps? I am not necessarily saying that's what it is, but that's the kind of presence of darkness, that I am tuning into.

It's a sense of evil that's hard to shake or explain, one that can only be felt. A dark presence or a dark shadow that stretches into personal spaces.

I am thinking that bible saying about the "eyes of the lord, going throughout the earth" and what things must be seen. What wickedness must be encountered? What hidden crimes must go unseen by many?

I think I will take a moment to ask those who still believe in it to pray. It's not good to be this close to a presence of evil, but I also worry about those who don't know it when they see it, and for the unaware who may encounter it as it goes prowling along the path.

I am hoping that enough light will go forward to expose the darkness. I think just like with what is happening with us, exposure is one of the key things you can do to expose evil. It might not always stop it, but sometimes it can make just that little bit of difference.